*copied and pasted this from DA, I was a bit lazy to do it here*


I know I said I would come back, stronger and all that stuff I said previously. I put some more thought into it, and of what has happened or has been happening when I was gone and came back... nothing got solved. Everything got worse, and after my one friend kicked me hard under my butt and told me the truth WHY it wanted me to leave from the internet.... it was right... the way my friend put it was true.

I... don't belong here. I can't handle critique, trolls, haters... I can't handle ANYTHING here. I'm IMMATURE as fuck, I always tend to drag my friends in my shit, they get hurt, worried or either mad and it's all my fault.
Everything I've done was wrong... and no... I'm NOT running away as a fucking coward even if I am a fucking weak cry baby of a coward to begin with... I know what's best for me and ME ONLY. And that is to get things packing and get AWAY from the internet.
Away as in, not post anything online, drawings, journals, videos NOTHING. Sure I will be on the internet to watch YT videos and search things up about the latest PKMN news and shit but that's it! I will not do ANY social media and post stuff. I don't belong here and I never belonged here in the first place.

I admit my wrongs and rights of what I've done. The actions and words I said were always wrong even if a friend of mine typed it for me... and I don't want to rely on them for everything. As sweet as my friends are, wanting me to not lose hope and faith... well.. I lost it now.
Not everyone will like me I get that, I FUCKING get it not everyone will like me as a person of how many flaws I am myself and how IMPERFECT I AM. I am NOT a perfect human being. I'm NOT an emotionless strong robot. I am someone who is way to open minded without having any shame for my own good... and I sometimes wonder if that's a curse set on my life.

My life if pointless of how stuck I am on what to do. There is no job in art or decent studies for it, I can't MAKE it my job on the internet if I don't belong here in the first place. I'm just a waste of a human soul living on this damn planet that I should not have been born on.
I have to find out myself who I am... cause I don't know who I am, sure I am me but... I'm confused what I wanna be, how I want to be as... I need to find out what I want to do with my whole life just in general.

I don't care if the ones that were trying to help me want me to stay and not leave... everything is ruin my life that has been pointless since I was BORN!...
I'm a bitch, immature sensitive crybaby, I get pissed over very unfair things that is a part of fucking life, I can't take certain things as a joke when it feels like an insult, my art sucks, my videos suck I as a human being and soul just SUCK as much as everything else part of my life... I hate myself and my life. When I thought I could do ONE thing right with drawing, I didn't belong there either as I found out today.

I'm sorry for the new watchers who look up to me... but I will be gone for the next couple of years until I can HANDLE shit like this.... until.. I've grown up. I don't know when or how I can know when I've grown up... maybe my friends can notice it but.. ugh.


This is my farewell. My Tumblr is already empty with the ask accounts removed (still having trouble with two of them), I will remove everything from Inkbunny and Furaffiniy, remove all the journals on DA no matter if it's a happy memory of thought, remove the scrap submittions, delete my old art and put the ones from 2013/2014 and beyong on storage and remove ALL the custom boxes on my page and leave it behind like a desert. I will even deactivate my Adoptable account.
With the commissions and contest entries I still owe people for a long time... I will finish those and send it personally as a sta.sh file through notes and then I will take no more forever...
I will not return any time soon. Even if I will miss the positive things of my fans, friends and the happiness in my art. But everything is ruined for me and my friends. It's all my fault they are getting trolled and attacked because of ME. It's all my fucking fault.

I'm so sorry for everything, I regret even coming on DA and thinking it'll be a wonderful place to meet wonderful nice people... if I could fix a huge mistake I made in the far past I would have fixed it... even if my art would have been more shit then it already is I don't care... if I could have fixed this from the past my friends wouldn't have to worry and get hurt just because of me!
Everything is my fault... and I shouldn't have been so selfish and stubborn to ever return here... I'm sorry seriously, even if the word sorry doesn't mean anything... that's it's just an empty word.
But the things I've caused.. have said and done.. were all wrong. Nothing was right, everything was just fucking wrong. I regret even joining DA when I was 13 if I knew this all would happened I would have NEVER joined DA and left much more earlier.

I regret everything, every single word, every single step, every single sketch and every single artwork I posted I regret it so much...


And if you will tell in my face that I'm asking for attention and making a bigger scene then it should be, well I am NOT. I never asked for THIS kind of attention, I never asked my friends to be dragged down into it just because something stupid is happening to me. I am DONE here, I had a fun time but I'm done. I can't handle or take this any longer. I'm not running away, I'm simply leaving like leaving from an old ruined home and never coming back to it.
This decision is permanent. You can comment all you want on this journal but I will not reply... I don't want to regret leaving when I remove and closed anything off... I don't want to regret this.




Farewell, you were all great friends and supporters of mine. All so sweet and nice, or harsh but still, thank you for everything. Goodbye