I have goals for the new year, which sound simpler than before or that they probably are still; I've felt a weird good mood most of the time in the last month and a half of last year. Personally I had a great year. Work in particular had never been so stressful rage-inducing and draining but that pales in comparison to the good parts - as I've achieved a big step in how I want to create. It is going to sound stupid, but for some damn reason I had not figured that one yet. Basically all this time I've been almost afraid of "consuming media" (aka in not-weird-alien language just enjoying a comic, game, etc) because of the effect I know it has on me : if I like it, it'll derail my creative process as I'll likely drop everything I'm doing - stuff I deeply care about and committed a lot of time to- and focus instead my effort and passion on a new embryo that may or may not get cannibalized itself afterwards for parts, or not lead to anything. This happened often enough for me to be wary of committing to anything interesting, which might've led to my own creation growing stale. It's a tricky balance to keep, as on one hand it's preserving some sort of ecosystem; on the other hand this ecosystem is weak and rather poor. No wonder any sort of intrusion by another species, so to speak, would take it over so easily. I do believe it has some fertility, but it can afford to renegotiate the isolationist policy, and it must do so in order to stay alive; and this has proven possible this year because I got to start a proper comic with beginning, middle and end (speaking of which it's not dead and it's nearer to the beginning of the end than it's ever been). Another reason to accept and rationalize this, is that I was actually buiding up resentment for these other works, precisely because I knew the influence they could have on me; cutting a source of resentment is always a good thing.

I'm not sure if the weird feeling of being alive I've felt for the last two months has anything to do with this realization. But for sure, a brighter disposition helps with not feeling cornered in a dead end.

Oh, and, rambling aside, my goal for 2026 feels very simple, because it's merely building up on these tendencies achieved during last year, I want to finish my current comic and start another one (because yes I'm thinking of another one and case in point, its inception comes from binging the entirety of Gregory Horror Show which was just a wonderful watch. I love the dreamlike quality it has. Except this new project HASN'T killed my current one, they're peacefully coexisting as the new one is politely waiting for its turn and amassing more material and ideas. So the key was in actually starting something worth committing to, duh. I said it would sound stupid.). That's goal 1). Goal 2) is to be less of a total pain in the neck to deal with. For ça I've made progress too, but it's nothing much yet.

Ehh, so, that's all, please have a good day