This is something I have wondered for some time now. Is love real? Is it worth the fights and heartache? More importantly, what is it? Also, is it possible that some are meant to be loners? I feel heart broken and saddened. Not sure how to feel or think right now. I guess I'm trying to just put down my thoughts so I can get it off my mind..." Sighs and sits up " I look all around me and see so many furs who have mates and live happy lives and yet I'm alone. Maybe I feel unwanted and pushed away? I don't know. I try to make connections but it never works. Am i not lovable? Who am I? I'm a rainbow flying fox. Have no name but I go by the nickname of skittle. If you are reading this then know that I'm interested in knowing how you feel on the subject and your thoughts. Maybe I can find a middle ground and some solitude. I've had a depression since I was 13 for many reasons but alas ill spare you the details... Since I got out of high school my depression went from every day to about twice a week but it lingers over me every day. Today it hit me especially hard due to the fact that I don't feel loved and I feel cast aside by everyone. My heart aches and I not know why. Is my life coming to an end? Have I done something to cause myself constant misery? Why am so alone? Have I not done things right? It seems that no matter what I do I just can't do things right. I feel lost and hopeless the way a mouse feels when trapped under the paw of a cat. I'm ready to throw in the towel and give up..." Sighs sadly "I need inspiration... A spark... Something... Some one to lift me up..." Looks down and curls up "thanks for listening if you actually read this... I wish to cry but alas I can't... I don't know how..."