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I had written out something more eloquent but it got deleted, so here's the basic idea:

Do any other people into stuffing and or weight gain have a weird disconnect between how they feel about it IRL and online?

I really hate the idea of gaining weight IRL but the fantasy of gaining or being a feeder is really hot. Probably one of my biggest kinks. Same goes for stuffing, IRL eating competitions or any other stuffing scenario is disgusting to me, I have emetophobia, so its a big turn off in person. But in fantasy or when my sona does it, its REALLY hot. I'm not a big fan of fantasy emeto stuff, but its not as bad as IRL. Is this a common feeling in the community or am I a bit of an outlier?

I feel the same way about scat, watersports, slob, etc., but I'm pretty sure a lot of people feel that way about it. I just don't know about it for WG, stuffing, and similar kinks.

EDIT: I can and do follow some IRL feedees, but I can't watch most videos unless they have a online personality that's very kink centered. I watch burp/ fart videos, but I can't get myself to watch stuffing sessions.

Ciao, SW