So, besides my now yearly art dump of the commissions I've accumulated, there are changes that I have gone through in my life in the past.... 8 years or so that I never really discussed. Moved to Hawaii, fell out of a few relationships, gained a new relationship and forever partner in   DustyTheLion who I will eventually marry. I've only grown considerably in my job that now I make probably 4 times what I used to, bought a car for the first time from craigslist, sold a car for the first time, bought a new car for the first too. Paid off my debt only to go right back into debit with the car, managed to quit smoking and cut back on caffeine without the withdrawal, and started a community on VR Chat with a close friend   Rega , and I just posted the new logo I got made for it. Then we mix all this craziness with all the shit that has happened these past 8 years and some dread that I could lose my job or my sanity at any moment. It's been high risk, high reward for the past 8 years in a lot of ways and.... I just wonder if it ever stops? Or do I need to make a drastic change again for this to not be so..... nerve wracking all the time. I hate the feeling that all it takes is one really bad mistake for it to all fall apart. It's draining and it takes one of my days off a week of just doing nothing and veg for me to recover.

Before I spiral any further, and believe me, I can spiral further, just know that if we haven't talked in years, or feel abandoned by me in some way, it probably wasn't personal. My bandwidth for social interactions is so limited now and is usually consumed by my community FNM and my lion. Feel free to reach out to me and reconnect. I'd love to catch up when I have the time. I just can't guarantee that things will go further than that.