update part: i moved countries like i wanted to and people who donated have helped me hugely (i was really hanging there and it was the help i needed at the moment), i live in a communal refugee housing whats almost always without internet connection but its ok. my cat is living with my partner and i want to move out to be together with them in the future (and i finally want to transition how i wanted to since 2017 but i didnt because of my fear <3 and im basically having mental breakdowns like every month or so about it but it was a secondary issue until rn)

now i will jus yap because i want to put it out there somewhere ... im not happy with myself and my art and i havent drew anything i would be really proud of for a while. artists i adore and things i adore in art is so far away from what im creating and i feel frustrated with not being able to show people what i feel like reflects me the most, and im scared audience i collected over time wont be there for me if i will ever change. i have huge art block issues since war has began in my country and i just want to feel connected to my creative self again ...

anyways !!! im also on artfight this year in team fossils and i *barely* been attacked yet like i dont understand is something wrong with my characters or people dont like me for some other reason like ??? i really dont know what to think T_T also i wanna remind you im pretty active on tumblr too and i wanna get more social media accounts but i dont have much energy to have a lot, im thinking about bluesky and instagram and also simply posting my art in groups/telegram channels idk let me know if you have any recommendations and thank you for reading this if ur here <3