I've had something on my mind a lot lately. I've been debating weather or not about I should fully commit to making adult artwork, like as in trying to make a living out of it and I wanted to talk about it.

So let me tell y'all about how things have been in my IRL life, Frankly they've been pretty bad. Around the beginning of may my bus driving job ended (it was a seasonal thing). I tried to work for a limo company after that but that only lasted 3 days, I waited a whole two stinkin' months to start with those guys *my thoughts towards them are much fouler* That job very nearly put me out on the street if not for an inheritance that came my way. Which is how I've been surviving the past several months, I have been trying to find regular work since then but in that interim but the two temp to hire jobs I've had have only lasted one day, the first time being the result of a decision far above me and the second due the fact that I was lied to about the nature of the position and them let go for "not being very happy there" *eye twitch*.

I had to put that backdrop out there first for context as I talk about the rest of what's on my mind. I have been toying with the idea of getting a class A CDL and trying to get work from that but it's EXPENSIVE!!! And I'm not sure if its a good life decision or not.

so a major question that's been on my mind is "what should I do next?" I've always wanted to draw for a living and I recently got a client who was a joy to work with. It was my first commission in a very long time and the first one that was entirely over the internet. I have admittedly been thinking to myself "was this a fluke?" but it was still exciting to have someone commission me and It taught me a lot and I hope they commission me again in the future.

Still what's noteworthy to me about is how quickly I went from drawing adult art to getting paid to draw it. I did have to take a few years to functionally re-learn how to draw, I'd say that took me about two years and I started drawing adult art I believe sometime in 2022. At the time I had the thought adult art might possibly be a way to make some cash off of drawing but at that point I didn't actually know if that was the case or not. It took me a little longer to find the audience for the art. Last year here on fur affinity I basically started by just posting a big art dump of all of my artwork and my adult work, at least according to the number of favorites I've gotten is all for my adult work. I should also point out here that I was drawing ABDL adult artwork partially because I believed at the time and still believe its an art market that's under-served. I'd say my stuff definitely leans more toward the DL side of things but I'd be happy to indulge some of the AB stuff occasionally. I've actually had a character study idea bouncing around in my head that might work as comic (no guarantees tho)

Like if you follow me I'm willing to bet you also at least know about fetimation, paddedulf, vlue, and poofybuttrock. Basically what I'm saying is that it's relatively small group of artists that draw ABDL art in the first place. Speaking of fet, I have watched fet carve out a career for himself in this space and I saw that it was no easy feat either. It seems like drawing adult work of any kind is like running a hotel on top of a valcano, with how patreon-likes and payment processors freak out about our naughty little images. Still given how drawing the naughties actually fits my dream job description I'm starting to think I should 100% pursue it.

My dream job requirements are basically I can work from anywhere, in this case privately...i spend half my life in coffee shops, so i'd have to work around that. being able to set my own hours which for me would look very strange to a normal employer. basically a two part day. I draw for a living, hell it's why my degree's in 'digital animation and game design' in the first place*i'll rant about that some other time*

lastly I do want to talk about one of my apprehensions around drawing the naughties and at this point I think it's a tension I'm simply going to have to live with. I have no problem drawing adult images but it's not my favorite thing to draw, my favorite things to draw being weird robots, wacky monsters and videogame fanart, that kind of thing; I never want to stop drawing those things. I'm also someone who REALLY and I mean REALLY likes sharing their artwork and it's admittedly kind of hard to do that with the adult artwork. It's also why you keep seeing me upload non-ABDL/naughty artwork. Like right now I have an other fanart of hornet that I just finished inking that I'm already really excited about sharing with y'all. It's funny because I really do think making adult work to a particular taste is an art career track worth pursuing but also let me draw my weird monsters too ^^;

anyway thanks for reading my rant. if nothing else it helps me get my thoughts down and get them organized. I do know that in terms of adult art I've actually been itching to draw some cum fetish stuff but yeah I do legitimately think i found a niche that I might be able to pursue as a potential art career. Also it might mean finally becoming an animator too, I friggin' grew up on cartoons and i wanna make cartoons gum damn it! If the only way I become a cartoonist is to be a NSFW cartoonist so be it I guess.

btw feel free to comment as I do like having dialogue, I know I've been expressing some frustration at life in this journal post but I've been wanting to get these brain waves down somewhere where dialogue can at least potentially happen.