So I'm at home for spring break, and I'm stuck without ADD medicine because the nurse on campus dun goofed and didn't give me enough and the doctors here won't give me any more because people are silly and they abuse that stuff

Seriously why would you illegally pay for a drug to feel like you drank a pot of coffee. You could just buy a pot of coffee. It has to be cheaper. And tastier. And more hydrating. And less illegal.

I haven't updated here in a while! I'm in college now, early college to be exact, as I graduated out of 11th grade! It's a challenge when you have ADD, but having medicine helps tremendously, to the point that I have pretty wonderful grades and I want to transfer elsewhere so my work is harder. I'm starting to think my unmedicated ADD's been getting worse, and I hope that's not the fault of the fact that I take medicine. I did almost nothing all day because I couldn't stay on one task and I was so sleepy and lazy and apathetic today that I accomplished nothing but helping my mom wash the dogs (Yes, I got a second pup, her name is Maya! <3) and making 3 meals for myself, but even then I made pad thai and M&M popcorn for dinner. At 2:30 am.

If you're wondering why apathy is a symptom of my ADD, it's because I don't have the hyperactive kind you normally see in the media. I have the inattentive kind, so I can't stay focused or organized or remember most of what I take in, just like ADHD patients, but it's not because I'm too busy jumping around and doing tons of stuff. It's because no matter how much of a crap I give, I can't make the wiring in my brain give a crap and do what I tell it to do. It's extremely irritating, but I guess I have the plus side of being more creative than neurotypical people. And unlike some ADDers who take medicine, taking stuff doesn't really kill that creativity, which is lovely. You see why having medicine is a win-win and silly speedfreaks are indirectly making me miserable, right?

Do you know how hard it is to type something of this length I mean what am I even typing anymore I should've made an outline or something

So yeah. I basically just wanted to update this. Maybe I should've waited until I have medicine again. I guess maybe writing commissions are still open? I got absolutely no interest from anyone, but I guess they're still a thing. Just for the love of fuck (oh, I swear now btw), please make sure I have medicine when I go to write it. Otherwise it'll look like this splattery clusterfuck of a post.