I have tried and tried and tried to do better, be better, be understanding, learn from past mistakes, took time away from my family and friends to finally find love... and of course, it turns out there is no such thing as true love or a true relationship for a guy like me. I was put on this Earth just to be a single nice guy.

I just can't do this anymore. Yes I had my faults and flaws and I've done things and said things that ruin past relationships but honestly, you can't put everything wrong in a relationship on me. It takes two to tango.

My last girlfriend I meant in real life was at work and we hit it off good. She was a cute chubby sexy redneck from Georgia but moved here in Texas and honestly, it felt like she was the one. Hell, we kissed each other damn near everyday when we work together. I even got a chance to actually "touched" her but no we never had sex. So fast forward to the here and now, what happened to us? Hmmm... let me see... for starters, she got fired from her job because she told a customer off about parking in the back of the store. I was helping her looking for a good job and turns out the day after Christmas of 2020, she ends up in the county jail for a month due to her getting into a fight with her step mom and yes it was self defense on her end but really she could of handle it better. Her mom drove down to Texas to pick her up and we met one last time in person at our local Wal-Mart and we kissed for the last time and thought it was over but we managed to stay connected and video chatting everyday for a year until Valentine's Day of this year when I got her a necklace and she dumped me afterwards... why? Because I made a joke saying her favorite YouTuber she watches damn near everyday during our chat was her "second boyfriend". And she knew it was a joke because she joke about that with me as well but no only she can make that joke. Then have the nerve to tell me after we broke up and we tried to be friends that I was and this true... quote "stocking her Facebook page"... first off, is the education system in Georgia bad these days? She can't spell worth a damn, it's "stalking" not "stocking" and second, I thought we was cool in trying to build things up slowly again but no, I was wrong. So I haven't spoken to her for a little over a month now.

Then I tried online dating once more and of course, the ones I was talking to and getting to know them and they know me... turns out when we met in person... I wasn't good enough for them.

So yeah, that's it. I've had it. I'm done. No more. Fuck it. It's over. Enough is enough. Since I'm not worthy of being in a relationship, so be it. I am happier being single than wasting my time, money, energy, patience and resources on people using my kindness as a weakness and play with my heart and shattered it into billions of pieces. I'm doing just fine with life. Been at my job for 5+ years now, got money, getting ready for college soon, playing video games and just enjoying being myself without someone trying to change me.

So yes, relationships for me, as of now (March 19th, 2022), is over. Maybe down the road someone would actually take me serious and accept me for me but I HIGHLY FUCKING DOUBT IT! I am no longer looking for a relationship for the foreseeable future. If there's a connection with someone, it's only going to be friends until I can trust that person. I'm done until (if ever) further notice.