I've been so mellow.

It's all good.

Lately I have been hanging out with Liane's older brother Erich's friends. Me and travis are kind of an item, it's cute. <3
But it's all open ended, so there's no pressure on either of us, we hang out, cuddle, etc. But no titles.

I love hanging out with them because there isn't bunches of douchebaggery, everyone just tries to get along and there's absolutely no drama. We're all just...chill. It's sweet.
Too many times have I gotten pulled into tangled messes, webs with layers and layers of complication and drama. And I've just stopped buying into it at all. I won't even listen to the "he said, she said" bullcrap anymore, I just tune it out and go on to other things. It's just gotten me into trouble with people when I question them about it. I don't listen to it or confront people about it anymore. Someone has a problem with me, they can say it to my face, othwerwise, I hope they don't hate me, and if they do, oh well.

I just don't give a fuck. And in a good way.

I don't even like to partake in talking about people from high school. Or people I don't know. I dunno, I find it pointless. Which is why I go and find my own fun when people start digging out the yearbooks. I don't like talking shit behind people's backs. If I have a problem with them, they will know. Right now I don't have a problem with anyone, except maybe some family members, and they know.

I've gotten into disc golf, I hope to play again very soon! I like that it's been warm lately.

This spring break has been good for me. I've taken time to think about alot of things, and my inspiration has gone back up.

My mood is just so...flatline, mostly. And, I like it that way. I'm really beginning to think that love and intense feelings are pointless, they get us into trouble, make us selfish, and crush our hopes when the feelings aren't returned or get underwhelming responses.

Instead, just, be as good as you can to everyone, try to get along, don't cause unnecessary shit, just go with the flow. Be peaceful, and chill with lots of friends. And the sweet people will do the same right back. It just causes a chain of mellow and happy. Then, the inspiration comes on its own. The feeling that you do have friends who give a shit, and aren't just there for a relationship or sex and blow you off otherwise is an amazing one. One that makes you realize you don't have to intensely love just one person. Instead, give just a little bit of that love to everyone.
I've found that that's all I need to be happy.

Or maybe I'm just a stoner. I don't really know.

I just know I am so much more mellow now, and I like it.