Losing my job.... My greatest friend... all on the same damn ass day.... It's the worst feeling a person like me can go through I have been sitting here for the last two days wondering what hell is wrong with me.... what did I do wrong when did these events start.... I feel like crap I cant talk to people without wanting to rip my eyes out and sending them down a well... Nothing feels right anymore my happiness has been eluded from me I tried to play xbox that didnt help I tried roleplay the one thing that used to always keep me up and running i mean roleplay always made me happy no matter who it was with but now its just like it isnt even worth trying to do it... I laid in my bed until four pm today staring at the wall wanting to cry... so much.... that all this stuff is happening to me.... - sighs softly - maybe one day things will be better but I dont see a bright way for a while....