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"How shall i be described? Can i call myself miserable being? How should i konw? Why so many questions? What is wrong with me? Pretty much everything, i guess. As for other questions, screw it sideways. I'm pretty much comfortable at the point where i am right now. Sitting in the backseats of the gallery, watching as my life slowly burns out for nothing. This warmth i have, but can't share it. Entire void inside me, that can't be filled. Nah. Let it burn. Burn to hell! Wooo! Here you are, reading this poorly written sentences without any sense, and there i am, writting even more of this riddiculous crap. I hope, its pretty funny to read. As much as it somehow hurts to write..." - Me, few months ago.
Right now, as i look back at that time, i realize, how stupid i was. Surely, it's not that sort of revelation, that flips your life upside-down, i just realized, how pitful and wotrhless i was, during the writing of that stuff. I guess, i was out of control, and let the emotions speak for me. And that's not the right thing for a man to do. I learned that just recently, from one friend of mine. She (uh-huh, that was a girl) said:"When i get depressed, i punch myself, reminding myself, that somewhere it may be worse...". This was the final slap i needed to realize my own weakness. She's strong-willed, forward-looking individual, and personally, i think she will succeed in achieving her goals. I, in my turn, must grow up, to become reliable person, to not be ashamed of myself ever again...
Right now, as i look back at that time, i realize, how stupid i was. Surely, it's not that sort of revelation, that flips your life upside-down, i just realized, how pitful and wotrhless i was, during the writing of that stuff. I guess, i was out of control, and let the emotions speak for me. And that's not the right thing for a man to do. I learned that just recently, from one friend of mine. She (uh-huh, that was a girl) said:"When i get depressed, i punch myself, reminding myself, that somewhere it may be worse...". This was the final slap i needed to realize my own weakness. She's strong-willed, forward-looking individual, and personally, i think she will succeed in achieving her goals. I, in my turn, must grow up, to become reliable person, to not be ashamed of myself ever again...
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7 years agoMEMES
All kind of memes. Yes. Have you ever noticed, that sometimes we all use some memes in our life? Damn, even our life itself could become a meme on its own! And i mean it! Just try to remember the last time you did something very awkward, and you felt very funny about it? No? Well then, good sir (m'lady), you've lived a very boring life. Personally, i think of myself as an immature, sometimes stupid, slow and lazy piece of work, and oh my, where would i've been right now, if there wasn't any meme around to make me laugh about my situation! I think it's a little strange, that right now i'm writing this sort of text. Perhaps i don't have anything to write it right now, or, perhaps, i just don't give a diddly-fuck about it. You know, we all getting trough some very crazy shit sometimes. And some of you (yup, you, the curious one, that reads it right now) having some shit that even more wicked than mine. I don't know. I can't understand how the different people feel it. But i sure can understand, that a good laugh about something simple and/or stupid, like a well made "RKO outta nowhere" meme can make your life a little better. Of course, we all have different tastes and interests, but the laugh is the thing that unites us all. So, YOU, yes, you, the curious one, when you feel bad, just find something, that can make you smile. Even if it's just a little smile, you'll start feeling better right away, guaranteed. Or not, some people are just don't have sense of humor, i suppose...
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