Good morning Fur community!
~Thank you.~
I really mean it too.
See for the longest time I was a “Closeted” Furry, I liked the art and had a character Xander Phyctio but the community I was brought into was a bad representation of the community as a whole. I'm not going to get into them because it's the past. (and for those that know me i'm not talking j/f house, that was unrelated to furries though furs were involved)... This is going to be a long post, But good.

The fur community is an open and welcoming community that encourages you to be who/what ever you want, and this is the side of the community that kept me. Anyway... Only a month and a half ago I was able to put a title on my sexuality, and it seemed to be a wall that was stopping a lot more progress. I have always had issues with depression, from being a bullied, time-share, child to an adult that doesn't even know where he fits (or if he can fit) in. This issues I had with my sexuality was the fact that I had a libido (really I think my dick just worked i'm not sure if libido was involved) but I never had sexual thoughts about people. And when I tried to think of it it was uninteresting, not gross just meh... it sounds like it was pretty obvious it's Asexuality but I was unaware that Asexuals could fall in love or seek relationships... (basically I had issues separating my relationships from my sexuality).

But since I titled myself, so many other things about my personality fell into place. Depression was lifted it seems and i'm still in the process of re-defining myself...

when did I first relate to rabbits: basicly the birth of my furry side but long long long before I knew what furries were... in elementry school I had a puppy love kind of crush ona girl and she related me to thumper. I remember her saying it and instantly I was a rabbit XD. I was meek, cautious, and hard to read emotionally... not to mention my awsome buck teeth that just pulled it all together... With all the likeness of the rabbit I had a character of me that was a small, high energy socially open but guarded. My size has always been a bad thing to me...and unlike the girls that don't like my fat, I hate the height and build. (I play halflings and females mainly and all characters I have ever made were 5'5 and under unless they had to be bigger.)

In highschool I flirted with a girl by claiming I was a cat (still don't know furries, I was flirting) and was captured by her later as her pet tiger ^.^ to this day Catamara lives on and that leash is still strong. Then there was this guy I had a crush on, and he was a furry. A fox, and him seeing me being a pet tiger thought I was furry too. After highschool he and I went to a fur meet where I got to learn of the furries. Of course my character Xander Phyction was a make shift fursona even if I was closeted shortly after.

Who was Xander? I wrote of him. He was a Mary Sue character that was cut into 2... Xander (the male rabbit) and Alexandria (female wolf). Alexandria was a refection of my caring feminine side that held traits that would hold Xander back to have...
I said before, that I played mainly female character... I have always been feminine and it was even a running joke (a revoked man-card that never got reinstated but always revoked.) and I was comfortable being seen that way. Because of my feminine side I got along with girls well, but my Asexual side made males hard to get along with (or at least relate too)... Always feeling awkward when a guy pointed a girl out too me, I knew what “hot” was but I didn't know how I was supposed to feel... (this is a big factor to why I had a hard time, instead of recognizing a lack of attraction I was reading it as something wrong...

Now only a week after I made my decloration and started fixing my life Zootopia came out...

Judy is the type of fictional character I have a crush on normally, I love media and characters make it for me, but something seemed different. Judy Hopps is a spitting image of how I see Xander, but female... and it hit me... I didn't have a crush on judy because I related to her... I even told my friends... “um... i'm judy hopps...” rephrasing i'm not actually judy hopps, but there was always a missing connection to Xander that made me tell people he's my “character”. So Xander is still my “character” but I have found my actual Fursona...

Alex Phyction (Alexandria)
^.^ this will even come with a FA user profile later to link too.

Best to fit in to, Gender Identity: so this does bring light to the fact that I am Transgendered ^.^.