It's been 3 whole years! Where the HELL have you been?

First and foremost; Hello FurAffinity! The shark you love to hate is back, with a vengeance!

A LOT of shit happened whilst I was gone...

Over the last 3 years, I dealt with a friend's suicide, a relationship breakdown, aaaaand getting sick. Really sick...

Without divulging details, I will skip right over the first two. I really don't wish to talk about it publically.

However, for the last 2 years, I have been waking up, day in, and day out, feeling quite weak and dizzy/lightheaded, accompanied by brain fog, confusion, and in some cases; mad temperature fluctuations.
I have been in and out of the doctor's and the hospital since June last year. Had a variety of tests done, etc, etc. And for the most part, all of my tests have come back pretty much perfect. Medical professionals fail to see what is actually wrong with me! That was, until my last big blood test...
Turns out that I have two vitamin deficiencies (namely D and B12), and my blood sugars are approaching 'pre-diabetes' levels.
I've since been put on some medication for this, however, the problem still persists.
I have lived this way for 2 years. I can barely even go outside. However, I remain optimistic that there's a chance I might get better...

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Sooo... what now? What has brought you back?

Recently, I have been chatting with a couple of cool furries over on Instagram.
I have shared my story with them, and told them everything about how badly I was treated in the fandom a decade ago.
Whilst they were shocked/sorry to hear my story, they took the time to chat with me, and offer a different perspective on things; which I wholly appreciate.
To top this off, a few people have reached out to me, telling me that they enjoy my fingerboarding content (over on Insta and YouTube), and how cool Tömbii is.
This kinda motivated me to dabble in art again, and I've really enjoyed my output these last couple of weeks.

I may have just found my spark again...

I'm 33 now. I'm older, wiser, 2% more mature than I was in my 20s, and definitely a lot more chilled out.

I had to come to terms with the fact that; What's done is done. The past is the past, and I should look forward to the future.

I was treated so bad, it sent me on a path of self-destructive behaviour, my depression plummeted to a new low, and any self-esteem was obliterated.
My art, other endeavours, and relationships all suffered as a result.

However, after recent encounters, I finally realised that I'm over all of the bullshit.
I am ready to let go, move on, and be myself again. Outspoken or not...

It's time to make more art.
The shark is back, and reinvigorated with a new wave of fresh energy.
It's time to take life by storm once more!

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That was quite a speech, Tömbii. You done?

*Sigh*, yes. I'm done. Rant over.

I'm back now. And I would appreciate it if things were cool going forward.

Here's to bigger and better things...

SHARK OUT!