Since I finally did the deed of creating a furaffinity account to post my animal people stuff I've been kinda thinking about creating my own fursona, mostly because I feel like I stand out too much not having one. I like fur art, I enjoy most of its facets and the subculture around it, but I never really had or planned to had a fursona because it was just not something I was that interested, not a lot of point I supposed, and me creating one always felt somewhat forced, like something I had to do to prove something to someone. This time sounds like that but it's also something a bit more deep and quite fascinating, the overall concept of fursonas and personal identity and how you see yourself and how you perceive who you are.

Foxes are sly, tigers are powerful, dragons are mystical, snakes are dangerous and cats are individualists and dogs are friendly, those sort of ideas we transfer to animals and they can represent, from strengths, smarts ideals to prejudices are kinda one of the cores of why people choose their fursona, consciously or not, we project those ideas on animals as we perceive and later project the animals on someone else as we perceive them. It's simple, but here is what is truly interesting in my opinion. When someone creates a fursona, no matter what it is, they do it because they see themselves as they see those animals, they idealize themselves as something they want to be, they do it because they admire it the animal in any way or because they think people will admire them if they carry those ideals? And also all the other infinite reasons I imagine people must have to create their own fursona, impossible to even be thought off by my limited perspective.

With all the paths someone can take in the creation of this new identity, how you see yourself and how people will see you in a certain way all the choices and ideas are fascinating to look at in an objective way. It is something you will carry for a long time and as time goes it does not only become a part of you, it can become your true self, how you truly see who you are or even how much you changed since you decided to become this new facet. You can see why and how I can be indecisive of what exactly I could do and how to approach it. And that's not even half of what is on my mind.

I know what you are thinking. "trowawa, jesus fucking christ, lion of judah (furry joke, get it?), it's just a fucking fursona, for the love of what is fucking sacred, stop overthinking". First of all, no. Second of all, no. It's not only a fursona, it's a window to a soul of someone, their ideals and representations being portrait in one of the most simple and straight forwards ways it can be, of course, you kinda need to extrapolate a little, try to understand how they think and why they think the way they think before getting to any real conclusion, but man, is right there, someone ideal, their true self to anyone look and study, is pretty cool to look at and try to understand. And "no" because not only I can not overthink, this entire walltext is my average background noise idle thoughts while I look at butts on the internet, seriously, it never stops and is not even that deep of a thought, I could "esoterize" the shit of the concept, trust me, we don't get out of here before you having the certainty and the right to believe I'm just fucking insane, love, and this is statement is not a hyperbole, I'm serious.

The conclusion to that is that I've been doing a lot of soul searching. Google searching that is, doing some "what animal are you tests". (I'm dead fucking serious), comparing the results, making mental notes and going back and forth off my ideas of what and who I should be. I will probably just choose a fucking snake, I'm a fucking snake above all things, this whole deal of me overthinking is kinda true from that perspective. But also, no, I can be more than that or I'm really what I see myself as? That's the real question of this silly schizo rambling. I don't really like the idea of having a badass cool looking fursona, I think is silly of me, I'm a piece of shit, love, I'm not a bad ass dude not in the slightly, but I can idealize myself as one, I can even act as one if I wish, here, and could be really fun and silly. I could choose a silly goofball fursona, something dumb that would make people not take me as seriously like a mole or a duck, that would be fun, right? Or I could just make something that looks nice and people would enjoy it, something that I can use to improve my image and I know it won't stand too much like my other ideas, it's the ideal, it's even perfect. But I'm far from that, love, far from that.

And you, silly person who read all this absolute trash, why are you who you are here, why did you choose the fursona you have now? I know the chances of someone reading this are really low and will probably even be worse because it will probably in the future and I will already had choose what I'm, that being something or even nothing, but don't mind that, time is just a construct, is not really real, is as real as the voice in head reading all of this, just a illusion of our synapses, so you can tell me either way, I'm looking forward to reading it.