Its been one month since you left us, and the pain and anger don't diminish, the sleepless nights and horrible days continue as my soul still craves vengeance against your murderer, for even though you took your own life, it was because of "her" and "her" lies and manipulations, even so, you made me promise I would not hunt them down, for you knew I would bring the hammer down on every one of those that betrayed you equally and without measure, you knew me well, and I miss you terribly, and even though the other ones are working on getting justice, I will not aid them, because I promised you.

All I have left are these words my friend, that I write in an attempt to extinguish the anger I feel knowing the person responsible for your death is still out there, being treated by "her" cult as if "she" was the most precious thing, being told it was not "her" fault, being comforted as if "she" deserved it, those you knew "she" betrayed you with, they love and desire a murderer and a liar, living on their own delusions as well, you were murdered my friend, whether they want to admit it or not.

We were your family too Tygrus, we knew you, we cared for you, we tried to get you out of that damn corrupt system that had its claws on you, but you knew we couldn't do anything legally but that we were trying, and then you forgot, your memory got shattered and you forgot, we tried telling you but you began talking about "her", about "her" lies, you told us to back off because "she" would come through, that you finally found love..., you treated us like strangers, you never spoke about us, you forgot about us, you never told them about us, because of "her", because "she" was as lonely as you, you said, even though you knew before your memories got shattered that "she" lied, goddammit why did you had to listen to "her"?, this past month I have been going backwards on all your history with your murderer, reading, you also doubted "her", you saw fragments of the truth but your love was too great, you only offered "her" love and care, and all "she" did was lie to you over and over again, causing you to doubt, you felt the truth at your finger tips you begged "her" to release you of the oath you made, but "she" dragged you back and I don't know why.

You never told us about this side of you until you were in the hospital after "her" betrayal, you knew you wouldn't be able to survive for long, so you finally decided to let us know about this side of you, I still don't understand it, but I guess its why "she" could trap you like "she" did, sadly your wounded state and your fractured mind made you an easy target, I still read "her" last conversations with me with rage, "I wish he could have been with you" "she" told me, spitting on your memory, "let me enjoy life" "she" told me, as if killing you was just a game to "her", that monster spat on your love, on your care for "her", even if some part of you knew, your heart never weavered, until the very end, when "she" murdered you, that last dying light on christmas eve fading as you looked to the sky waiting, and it torments me because I told you to try, to hope, it was my fault for not listening to those that knew the truth, to the kids, who saw right through "her" and them.

I know these words will never reach them, some of "her" cult might read it but it will ultimately mean nothing, "she" has already dropped you like you meant nothing, all of them have, we made you a funeral in ff, they, they didn't even say a word about you, I wish they had, since once they meant something to you, but I know they never will, because they side with a murderer, with a liar, this words are for me.

I should have sent your last words to all of them, to "her" "artists", to "her" supporters, to your replacement, to "her" but even though they had a lot of truth in them, you still cared for them in the end, you still said kind words to them and they don't deserve them.

And in the remote case "you" are reading this, you killed one of the brightest stars in the sky, I only pray justice finds you, you are no hero, you are no superhuman, you are a murderer, I know he is not at peace because of you, and I hope life is as merciless on you and your cult as it was on him, I hope the hunt they have against you right now comes through, I hope you know no peace and pay for your crimes.

Good night My friend, I miss you, more than I can ever say.