This is hard to say because I like being a guy people can lean on, but this weekend was supposed to be a mini mental health vacation for me, just time to me and my psyches so I can rest and become happy again...fate had other plans it seems. Initially, it was because of a friend I had who, while gaming, has been overwhelmingly aggressive and toxic to the point where she triggered three separate DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder) episode. For those who don't know, it's kind of like Split Personality Disorder, but you're dissociating instead of just switching out. Anyways, it got to a point where I had to do an emergency edible because I couldn't come down long enough without having a mental break down, and thus what procked my need for a Me-cation. Keep in mind, this was last Friday.

Saturday comes, and I have it out with someone who tells me that, because I'm morbidly obese (I'm only 270 lbs and you're not morbidly obese until 310) I won't have a chance at finding someone sexy or muscular because they find fat people repulsive and only want people like them, and when me and two friends called them out, they played victim instead of apologizing. So, day 1, went down the shitter.

Day two starts, and it's Sunday. I end up losing interest in someone who shares no common interests with me aside from SecondLife and being monogamous (Long made short), and I decide to break it off...and they in turn decide to go High School Drama mode. Keep in mind, this person is supposedly 30 years old. He gets on an alt account, that he uses for Zoophilia (gross, another strike on the "not interested" log), just to call me stupid and dumb for losing interest over him not "using tiktok" or liking anime, completely missing the point of my argument. I block that account and report it. Then he gets on YET ANOTHER account to call me rude and tell me I'm lying about him starting shit and yada yada yada. I was like "I don't think your 'friend' told you everything, it seems," because I figured out that was yet another alt account because I didn't accuse anyone of starting anything, and in fact chose to leave it behind me like a sensible adult. It boiled down to "where's your proof" and I sent them proof and said if they didn't leave me alone, I would report them to Linden Labs for harassment. So, day two of my vacation ruined.

YOU GUESSED IT! DOESN'T END THERE EITHER! An ex-friend of mine, named Larnroth, who is also 30, made a concerning post that had everyone asking if they were okay, and then decided to talk shit about them in his Discord status about how he wants them to leave them alone because it's out of their control and was about someone else, which, to make another story short, I told them that they're being ungrateful to his friends, who are so obviously concerned for them, and that I wish I had friends who cared half as much as they do them and proceeded to block them...who then went to one of my friends because they couldn't get in contact with me. You're how old? 30? You should know better than to drag random people into it, like a high schooler would. I started to have stress induced hallucinations and yesterday was supposed to be when I returned to streaming...didn't happen.

STILL NOT DONE! Today another friend had to help someone who wanted my ear so they could vent. REALLY!? YOU COME TO ME!? I get I wanna be the pillar of my community, but I have stated, over and over, that I just want some ME time...I need a moment TO ME! TO MYSELF! That I don't want to have to keep dealing with other people's problems over and over and over again, especially when I'm supposed to be relaxing and staying calm. I'm to the point now where I'm practically a ticking time bomb, feeling someone else in my head stir because I just can't fucking take it anymore, I'm about to explode, and feel bad for the person/persons caught in the blast radius...