"I'm a shapeshifer at Poe's masquerade
Hiding both face and mind, all free for you to draw
I'm a shapeshifter; have no face to show
please don't take off my mask, my disguise"
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Y'know, the lyrics here in "beneath the mask" have really been calling to me lately. Sure, it can be viewed as pretty generic but... it just feels like it fits in more than just a "I wear a mask everyday" kind of way (which is still true but obviously most people wear some form of mask so merp). I don't know my identity, or at least I don't know how to specify myself in a way I like. I typically just let other describe me for me and I'm...tired of it, and yet, I don't know what I'd like to call myself. gonna be real here, I'm a very bland person irl, very repressed, very quiet, despite my parents efforts while I was growing up, I didn't stick to much hobby's outside playing with my toys and drawing when bored or wanting to draw just cool stuff, typically sticking to being stuck in my own imagination, which eventually changed from toys to games and art to to fetish art as I grew up, with the fetish art primarily being my way of expressing my lustful desires in a semi open fashion since I share it here on fa and other places like bluesky. So...I guess it makes sense my sona doesn't have a sort of...base or main form, sure there's my original cat form I made but I've grown pretty disconnected with it as of late, I want a different sona to base myself off of for now, at first I made to tanuki form to try it with one of my fave species, but then I didn't really want it anymore after I saw Astenian's and their designs, and who knows if that's gonna last for long either, in the end, being a shapeshifter...fits me, I'm indecisive and choose things based on how much I enjoy it, and it's very rare for me to pick favorites in anything so...I have to simple answer to what sona I wanna be, or why I don't happy being/doing something for a purely logical and reasonable gain. (college suckssss but I'm making it through lol, work and jobs not a passion of mine in the slightest) So...why not I try to embrace the illogical and indescribable. I'll just...do me, I don't need to explain myself in this regard, I'll just...try...something? idk lol, "let my heart be my guiding key" and all that.