Hey there,

My poor account here has been so quiet. :x

I haven't posted on this account, art or journals, in a long time. Most of my time this year was spent doing commissions for visual novels, and commissions for my now-disabled extra-NSFW account. I guess that was a fun experiment, but, after a while, it just felt like extra work on top of my day-job, and it was keeping me from doing art & stories I wanted to pursue professionally. As tempted as I was to try and become a full-time furry niche porn artist and quit my job, my heart's just not into the craft and I'd prefer not to force it any longer. :\

Recently I've been making some huge life changes to help fix my bad habits. For too long I've held myself back from a potentially better life, and I finally want to make a determined effort to get myself out of this rut.

1. I quit video games cold turkey (hehe). I love the video game industry still, but I have problems with video game addiction that I've struggled with FOREVER. As much as I'll miss out on games I still haven't beaten, and ones I still want to play, it's for the best. It has been over a month since I stopped and it hasn't been bad! I think it helps that my newest job keeps me busy unlike my last one, as well as my next life-change ...

2. I'm working on a video game! It's with RPG Maker VX Ace. I've owned the engine for a billion years but never did anything with it. In the summer I had some problems with carpal tunnel, so I took to pixel art to try something new/less strenuous, and finally make a game with the old thing. I'll post pics on here eventually, but it is coming along so nicely! The main character is Zeus, a goat-bull. You may recognize him if you followed my NSFW account. It's probably a huge mistake to use him, but I love his design so much and he's adorable. It would be a shame to waste him.

I think a believable goal is to have the game finished in late Spring 2021 or early summer, as I have a lot done already, and I'm doing my best to get a little bit of progress done each day. I'm working on everything by myself, except for music & sounds, so it's a slow but steady race.

Now then, here at my goals for 2021:

1. Don't die. :x

2. Finish the backgrounds for Bullwhip. I don't know how many are left, but one of the main reasons that I quit video games and canceled any other commissions is that I want to finish projects faster. Make art fast -- get experience fast -- start new projects FASTER!

3. Start a new graphic novel project. I have an idea for a new comic. I would like it to be longer than Vanishing Woods, but made digitally and a simplified black & white. My goal would be to finish it in 1 year when I get started!

4. Finish chapter 1 of Infrared? I'm not sure when I'll return to this project, as I'm more interested in my game at the moment. Also the story for Infrared is honestly a HUGE bummer and I feel like working on happier tales for once with this year being what it is. Ironic since the videogame is not a happy story either, being horror, but Infrared is SUPER depressing in comparison.

That's about it. Sadly I don't think I can use Patreon or similar services to help support my projects. I know myself well and have trouble keeping up with projects and real-work on a schedule. My new job is okay: I love the 3 day weekends, but working the nightshift 10 hours a day is certainly something else. @__@ One bad "night" of sleep can mess me up for a week and makes it hard to make art quickly.

And that's it!

I hope you all stay safe until covid has passed. Take care!