This has been one of the worst years for me emotionally. I forced myself in to spaces I shouldn't have and around people who don't want me near them. It's been tough dealing with all of this nonsense, and what's worse is that I've taken it all out on myself through working egregious hours to ignore the feelings I've kept inside. It's over now. I feel as if I've come to the proper conclusions and am ready to move on from everything that's kept me stunted. Hell, I can't believe I allowed negativity to control what I believe myself to be! Some people will just never like you. It's a harsh reality, but not the worst situation imaginable.

IM A PRETTY POSITIVE PERSON. The more negative emotions you allow around you, the worse you'll end up becoming. I'm not the worst thing alive. IM NOT A PIECE OF SHIT.
Ugh, anyway I'm ready to get back in to drawing smut and stupid oc shit again, just don't expect a good upload schedule as I still work pretty tough hours.

If you're reading this then get it together. Your life, your positive energy, your motivations, keep them strong. Be Strong.

As always I'll be posting similar journals on all of my accounts with the same title. It's to ensure y'all don't read this more than once.