heyo!

Now, I want to start by thanking everyone for being patient while I have gone through this rough part of my life. So much to learn in so little time. But I have remembered why I am here.

My whole life I have been told I have a kind soul. I won't go in to high detail of my beliefs but some background is necessary. At a young age I was told I was eager to enter this life. Implications were made I was supposed to be a part of this community. Yes, I believe in an existence before this life and after this life. I do have religious beliefs and I wont go in to much detail about that. But I feel like I knew how my life was going to go and I wanted to spread kindness. That's why I was so eager. I think there's a reason why I have no preferences when it comes to what I like. Like it all so you can connect with others. Now, I don't know our previous and future forms but I wholeheartedly believe that I will be a dragon in the next life and was in the past. This is a connection I've had my whole life and can't ignore. From loving Stellaluna as a really young child to the instant obsession with Spyro I had the second I saw the reginited trilogy get released. although I had to wait 4 years to play it I speed ran all the games and once I finished that I went and bought a ps2 just so I could play tlos. I can't ignore it. It's a deep connection.

My whole life I've focused on being kind to others and giving everyone a chance. Everyone deserves a chance. At work, I always tried to be a friend to those who didn't have many or were made fun of because of their difficulties. I work so hard to help others. I spend all my time doing what I can to help others. I spend so much on gift art because I love bringing joy to others. After all, what's the purpose in making so much money just to spend it on yourself when you could spend it on lightening someone's day?

Now I know I've been very pessimistic lately. I don't believe in therapy. paying people to listen to you makes no sense to me. I would rather share my thoughts with people who actually want to hear what I have to say. I do appreciate all those who listened to me and I hope no friendships have been harmed in the process but I have remembered why I'm here. To be true to myself. To bring kindness to others. Be there for others who need someone to talk to. I want to do what I can to brighten someone's day. Whatever it may take. I want to focus on this goal. Let go of all the mistakes I've made and remember why I am truly here. Kindness. Not broken. I feel the happiest when I know I've helped someone.

Now I know I have many more barriers placed in my path but I'm ready to face them with iron claws. Tear them down. I feel I am past the worst and ready to remember who I am and not dwell on my mistakes. Instead grow off these mistakes and use them as examples to help others that may face the same struggles. My biggest fear still haunts me, VC. But I am almost ready to tear that wall down. I've made it this far and I am not going to give up. I will be the kind dragon I'm meant to be, no matter what it takes!