I get this feeling every so often but its such a terrible feeling when its family that makes you depressed. When the people who are supposed to support you and love you put you down and make you feel like shit. Like everything you do everything you try to do is meaningless. I've wanted to cry all day today, it gets to the point where the thoughts of just ending things enter my mind just to spite them. To make them see just how things would be without me. Its such a stupid way to think and I have not or will ever act on such feelings. I just hate spending my day feeling worthless, to wake up and get yelled at for nothing, then to have everyone come home and continue to yell and put me down because something else wasn't done or it wasn't done to their standard. I don't hate my family I hate the way they treat me, I hate the mental abuse. I can only take so much and 26 years of it pretty close to all I can handle....I don't care if anyone reads this or not I just needed to vent and get this off my chest.