☼ The secret is more-or-less out now. It was only ever a matter of time, but I had no idea the damage would run deeper than mere deception.
- I don't like talking about myself, and I have no regrets for what I have done, but I owe you all an apology and an explanation.
- Most of you won't care, so feel free to ignore this. I'm not here for pity.

☼ I hold three accounts on this site. I am also fully aware that this is against the ToS. These accounts evolved, and all three of their characters are fundamentally representations of myself and are irremovable.

☼ idealflame is the first account. This was me when I joined. When I just wanted to be somebody. ideal looks the most like me.
☼ imperfectflame came afterwards. Someone asked me to draw a vore picture and I, having neither inclination nor aversion towards the subject accepted the request. This account was to host fetish material, things that I might come to draw for myself, as can be seen in this series that a friend so kindly helped me indulge, but not seen by others (namely RL friends and family). But it was not to be. Through the hundreds of streams I attracted mostly vorephiles in a self-perpetuating loop: draw vore, attract vore audience, get vore requests, draw vore. These streams were mostly requests (fully-inked and coloured images) and doodles. The doodles started out as a couple of warm-up sketches, but evolved into something else.
- At one point I was hosting 5-hour long streams six days a week (starting at near midnight, after my days of chores) where I drew up to 30 doodles a night, and so many people wanted them that I had to enforce various queuing systems to keep it fair. I did this for nothing but the practice and the gratitude. This is evidenced by the huge supply of stream art in my scraps.
- Eventually this got so overwhelming that I had no choice but to stop accepting requests. It still took me a good month to get through the backlog. I accepted paid transactions because people still wanted my art, and I defy any other artist here not to aspire to recompense for their work in some manner or another. And even after that, aside from a couple of loyal friends, paid request for my work has only caught traction within the last couple of months.
- Even then, I would still try to keep the original intent of the account alive, through attempts such as this and this, hoping that no-one would really notice.
☼ congruentpartisan was created after I drew this gift, and the response was so favourable. I even came close to an argument with a very good friend because they found it difficult to percieve the trouble caused by my insecurity of actually producing art for something so crude as a fetish that I enjoy.
- I did this, partly because I felt that the audience of the previous account would care little for a sudden and drastic change in theme, and partly because I didn't want to be treated any differently. I don't want to always be in the fear that something to do with fat things occurs in a situation and everyone turns to me. NOTHING HAD CHANGED and nothing should change, but you cannot command a person's perception so easily.


☼ The jist of the matter is that this is not a money laundering operation. I am not trying to deceive people for my own gain. I hate almost everything about anything I do, and the only way for me to fix that is to segregate the fragments of my personalities and to help people.
- Even now I still draw ample gift art, birthday art and everything for people who don't even know me. For those who do. Birthday presents for those who probably don't even know I know their birthday.

☼ I am not doing this out of selfishness and I just want that clear. But to understand that, you must understand everything else.
- Yes, people will say that I'm being attention seeking. They will say that I'm trying to rile up an army or gain sympathy. But I don't care. This is the first, and likely the last time I will ever write anything like this, so take it as you will. I can only be myself.


☼ NOTICE: PLEASE DO NOT COMMENT ON THIS SUBMISSION. I ALMOST ALWAYS FAVOUR TRANSPARENCY BUT THIS IS NOT A TWO-WAY DISCUSSION AND I AM NOT LOOKING FOR PITY.
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