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The last time I put hands to my piano to record something was October 17th, 2012. I lost my faith years ago, but somehow held onto the idea that what I held inside me was special, something that should make me better than those around me.
I was wrong.
There have been comments that people felt like I was surrendering, giving up; I don't believe this is strictly true. I am no longer enchanted by my illusion that what I hold is "sacred", in any way. I am not the divine voice of music. I do not know what it is but I am certain that I very much wanted it to make me a special snowflake, and that would somehow bypass the things any "normal" musician would need to do to be successful.
The music will continue to speak to me whether or not I want it to; along with a comment I received in private, it adds to the evidence pile of "he's an autistic kid." Although, at 30, can I really call myself a kid anymore?
I wish I knew.
I was wrong.
There have been comments that people felt like I was surrendering, giving up; I don't believe this is strictly true. I am no longer enchanted by my illusion that what I hold is "sacred", in any way. I am not the divine voice of music. I do not know what it is but I am certain that I very much wanted it to make me a special snowflake, and that would somehow bypass the things any "normal" musician would need to do to be successful.
The music will continue to speak to me whether or not I want it to; along with a comment I received in private, it adds to the evidence pile of "he's an autistic kid." Although, at 30, can I really call myself a kid anymore?
I wish I knew.
Category Music / All
Species Horse
Size 120 x 120px
File Size 6.9 MB
"Although, at 30, can I really call myself a kid anymore?" Yes, yes you can. *smiles* For those of us on the far side of 50 and looking at double your age just ahead on the horizon, you can still be a "kid" if you want to.
You music is a wonderous thing. It does make you special. It is not, however, the ONLY thing that makes you special. None of us are defined by only a single aspect of what we are. We are a sum of many parts, unique in our complexity, our diversity, singular in combination.
Your music touches this wuffy, evokes emotions and visions. Thank you for the gift you give every time you play.
You music is a wonderous thing. It does make you special. It is not, however, the ONLY thing that makes you special. None of us are defined by only a single aspect of what we are. We are a sum of many parts, unique in our complexity, our diversity, singular in combination.
Your music touches this wuffy, evokes emotions and visions. Thank you for the gift you give every time you play.
Your music is like a fine wine of relaxation if relaxation could be sold in drink form. I think this tune not only shows that you have returned to form, but did not lose that form in the first place. You clearly enjoy making this music though. And more than you realise love to listen to it. I would very much like to upload the piece you made for me to my gallery if you do not mind?
I've not spoken to you in awhile, old friend, a lot of things have been happening. I've kept an eye on you, as I do so many others close to me in their own individual ways, and indeed I've seen what looks like a person trying to give up their passion, yet you still continued on despite that feeling, in your own way. Your music has helped a great deal of people, myself included, deal with a great many things in their lives. You may not be a singularly spectacular musician playing worldwide and being known everywhere, but you are indeed a special snowflake. Music with the amount of emotions yours holds is a rare treat in this day and age. So few practice the art of music with their heart now, and focus only on technical skill and what's "popular" with the world. The emotion in your music sets you apart from so many other musicians I've heard. I hope you continue to listen to the voice of the music, and allow your emotion to flow through it. No matter what the emotion being played is. *Hugs* You'll always have friends, even if not all of us talk to you regularly.
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