Phew, finally an artist demanding more than me. I sometimes feel fear that I demand too much.

To make it clear: I think you deserve this, you do! Which is why I feel good knowing you get much more than I do

Hehe thanks, and I do see some that ask way more than me, like one who has 100 pounds as a base price.

Yeah, some rant about it, but... if people want it, guess that's a different thing. I hope you do get the cash together for this!

Hehe not gonna order one myself, I'm glad I get some cash together to live on ^..^

Hope I could gather money to get my own place to draw yiff, then I could make some more money hehe

Ya for many that would be nice, I'm lucky that i got an open family and live in an environment where me drawing smut isn't seen as bad, after all this is pretty much registered as my current official job.

I'm just shy, but it's also a promise. I kept telling myself I'd draw it once I have my own place, now I notice I could do it even now, but then I felt like it'd be as if I gave up on my dream of moving out because "Oh no, I'll NEVER move out! I guess I might as well draw yiff now!". I don't want that! I will move out of this house, no more of that annoying dog, no more of my annoying brother and no more of the rest !!!!!

Also ehhhh just curious ... Official job? Really? I guess it can work when you live with other people, but.... really?

Well it's a bit more complicated, I'm actually still on unemployment payments but my commissions are registered as my current "self employment" where I earn extra, the agency is happy with that as they have to pay me a bit less and I'm happy because they don't put a lot of pressure on me (I earn more than a "1€ job" would earn me so I'm beyond the minimum) and I still earn a bit more than before.

Also I do understand your wish to move out but having doing what you'd want to do shouldn't necessarily depend on that. It's not an "all or nothing" situation, as long as you still feel safe about doing it you should just do it, that's just my advice on it ^..^

That's true enough, but ... whenever I feel like snapping, I just recreate drawings by other people

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9962965/ (<= I'm sure you know this one)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9492455/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8787313/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8712477/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8230117/

This keeps me hanging in there, so that I don't mind it as much. Plus drawing yiff is much lower on my priority list, for example, if you would tell me:
"You'll never draw yiff of your own!" => Me: Well.... bummer
On the other hand...
"You'll never move out of your parents house!" => Me: WHAT?! NOOOO I worked so hard for so many years and it won't change?! I'm cursed to live this horrible and awful life for the rest of time?!?!?!?!?

Ahh i see, well I wish you good luck with getting your own place, just remember that you shouldn't pivot doing what you like purely on that

Thanks