
I'm a really social person.
I don't like strangers, I don't really like being in public by myself, but I love my family. I love being close to people, I love knowing that there's people I care for, who care for me, in a reasonable distance that I can be around.
I really thrive on love. And while my primary partner gives me as much love as he possibly can, he's a busy grad student cat. I'm poly for a reason, but it's still hard to reach out for the love I crave. I'm always worried about being a bother.
I picture a sort of well of my Glow inside me, and lately, it really feels like it's drying up. There's a lot of contributing reasons, but the physical loneliness and lack of intimacy is really doing something for it.
If this makes no sense, then good. That means you're normal.
Whiny puppy baby blah blah
TL;DR: I want a hug and a kiss.
I don't like strangers, I don't really like being in public by myself, but I love my family. I love being close to people, I love knowing that there's people I care for, who care for me, in a reasonable distance that I can be around.
I really thrive on love. And while my primary partner gives me as much love as he possibly can, he's a busy grad student cat. I'm poly for a reason, but it's still hard to reach out for the love I crave. I'm always worried about being a bother.
I picture a sort of well of my Glow inside me, and lately, it really feels like it's drying up. There's a lot of contributing reasons, but the physical loneliness and lack of intimacy is really doing something for it.
If this makes no sense, then good. That means you're normal.
Whiny puppy baby blah blah
TL;DR: I want a hug and a kiss.
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weeeell ... i had to read that text of you, now of all time xDD. I'm feeling kinda the same, at least on the "thrive on love" part. Well that was right 3 years agoes, but had to adapt.
I'm somehow more distant from my familly and friend as i'm not much of an organized person, and just happen to partake on whatever event literally cross my road. Cinema with a friend ? good. Chatting and stuff with a pal in need, or just exchanging life story ? Good Also. Actually i think 'im different in a way, as i just love to throw funny lines, being all flirty without real interest, and anything that can actually earn me some appreciation. Sounds like an "early" form of love IMHO, and i just can't get enough. But i've been single for those three last years, and while i had some rare occasions to be in couple that i let "loose" or turned down, i feel there's really something that's missing. I know i know, can't really relate on the whole thing, you're probably thinking now "ogosh, another one to vent just when i posted a serious thing and felt like sharing a bit of private story" ... Tho, i'm coming to the (direct, sorry i'm not such a delicate man of manners) question ; why do i (we?) get this feeling ? Why do we get the urge to feel our friend and familly care and love us ?? Why should we need to be quite unique, un-expendable ? On some day i wonder if i don't simply lack love of/for myself ^^''
Sorry this was really out of the blue, but i can't help but being curious when i come accross some people whom (apparently) have some similar reactions or issues like i do. I would love to talk to you, really, just to see what gives and how you sort out all those tiny problem or questions ...
Well anyhow, back on topic, it's a wonderfully cute drawing, even while being a little sad, and i really hope people near you and strangers alike show their appreciation for your art, 'cause you deserve eet >:3
I'm somehow more distant from my familly and friend as i'm not much of an organized person, and just happen to partake on whatever event literally cross my road. Cinema with a friend ? good. Chatting and stuff with a pal in need, or just exchanging life story ? Good Also. Actually i think 'im different in a way, as i just love to throw funny lines, being all flirty without real interest, and anything that can actually earn me some appreciation. Sounds like an "early" form of love IMHO, and i just can't get enough. But i've been single for those three last years, and while i had some rare occasions to be in couple that i let "loose" or turned down, i feel there's really something that's missing. I know i know, can't really relate on the whole thing, you're probably thinking now "ogosh, another one to vent just when i posted a serious thing and felt like sharing a bit of private story" ... Tho, i'm coming to the (direct, sorry i'm not such a delicate man of manners) question ; why do i (we?) get this feeling ? Why do we get the urge to feel our friend and familly care and love us ?? Why should we need to be quite unique, un-expendable ? On some day i wonder if i don't simply lack love of/for myself ^^''
Sorry this was really out of the blue, but i can't help but being curious when i come accross some people whom (apparently) have some similar reactions or issues like i do. I would love to talk to you, really, just to see what gives and how you sort out all those tiny problem or questions ...
Well anyhow, back on topic, it's a wonderfully cute drawing, even while being a little sad, and i really hope people near you and strangers alike show their appreciation for your art, 'cause you deserve eet >:3
It's like insanity in Don't Starve. When you invent something, you recover a lot of sanity. if you just go about your tasks and not inventing anything, you slowly lose your sanity.
In your case, Inventing something = making new friends. That's just my 2 cents though... You might need new friends to share old stories with. ;3
In your case, Inventing something = making new friends. That's just my 2 cents though... You might need new friends to share old stories with. ;3
I can somewhat relate to this feeling. I tend to feel better when I'm surrounded by people and I especially enjoy public speaking situations. Nothing makes me more confident than being able to speak in front of a huge audience about something I care about. I have found that I am much better when I'm taking an active part in a community. I don't know if this sounds similar at all, but I think I get what you're talking about.
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