Sometimes I have the hardest of times.

Where do I belong?

Up north with my Fiancee, master, love? Or do I belong down South with my family, friends, and a quiet job that I will always have because its my calling? There is no list of pros and cons.

If I move up north I get my freedom, to start a family, to be me. But I will never see my family because they will not come to visit. I will be the only one. I can go down to see them, but if I have children, how do I know they will still be a physical part of my life and not just Facebook again..

If I stay down here I lose my love, my life, my freedom. I feel like I walked willingly into a trap.....