xwx This is gunna SUCK.

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When I woke up, everything was blurry, I felt my body aching with pain and I moaned loudly.
Slowly my vision cleared and I realized I was in a hospital room...I hated hospitals...
I glanced around, noticing some...stuff lets call it. I have no idea what it was and I didn't care really, hooked up to me.
I scented Spade and rolled my head over to see the other sitting in a chair next to my bed, holding my hand tightly in his. I saw he was asleep, and that he had been crying.
I'd been so horrible to him...yet he still cared...
I moved to give him a little hug when my body screamed in protest, sending pain shooting through me, I let out a screechy noise, which woke the other up.
He hugged me gently, caressing my body in his arms, nuzzling my face.
I felt myself relax, despite being in this horrid place I hated so.
He kept murmuring stuff to me, but I wasn't paying attention, I was staring at his ears.
I couldn't help but want to stroke them, they looked so cute.
I moved a bit and winced whimpering,
"Sshh...." I heard Spade murmured softly and comfortingly into my ear, "Dont move..."
He laid me back down, still holding my hand. Everything was wonderful, Until....things happened.
I dont remember much of it because of my split personality...but I remember some.
I remember a doctor trying to touch me- HELL NO. No one here was going to touch me AT ALL except Spade.
The next thing I knew the room was I mess, I was on my feet and the doctor was on the floor doubled over in pain.
My body hurt horribly, like my veins were filled with fire, but still I stood.
I remember Spade trying to calm me down and a few more doctors trying to restrain me.
I saw one take out a needle...and things got worse from there.
I remember Spade holding me back before I blacked out for a rather long time.
When I awoke...I was in another white room, practically strapped to the bed.
Fuck.
Where was I? A mental ward or something?
I could almost hear myself muttering "I'm not crazy..." not a good sign.
Maybe I was...who knew.
I heard Spade's muffled voice talking to someone, the door opening and then someone undoing my restraints.
Spade hugged me tightly, consern shining in his eyes.
I cant remember what happened next, it was all just a big blurr to me.
But somehow I ended up totally freaking...And nearly killing myself.
Why I cant remember.
"Voices. Yes thats what....voices. Voices in my head...." I mumbled when Spade asked me some sort of question.
I was definatly insane now. I knew it
Spade frowned, he took me back to his home, promising the doctors he'd bring me back if there was any problems.
But voices in my head and not being able to remember things easily were the very least of my worries as my mental stableness declined rapidly.