Anxieties and A Teddy Bear
"I know some people who always tells me to 'calm down', to 'stay positive', and to 'keep your chin up'. Some people can easily process the advice without a problem and do a quick turn around. Others, like me, have a difficult time taking it in and applying it. When your mind races and nothing but negative thoughts come up, you have trouble noticing other events around you. Your ears turn out everything and all you can hear are echos of negativity and self doubt. Your eyes can't see the positive sides of things and you helplessly focus on the negative views of certain events. All your senses grow cold and fragile.
Those who don't understand anxieties and depression make it sound so easy for you to snap out of it and be happy. They expect you to switch like a turn of a dime. The way they tell you to basically "suck it up" has no ounce of empathy and concern. They don't help you at all. Some people can easily turn their head and act like nothing happened. They find the answer quickly. Others can't. It takes time. Its a battle between you and the negative thoughts taking over your mind. Some people start to become self-distructive, physically and/or mentally. Everyone asks why my large stuff bear Wozzle has so many rips and tares. He is my personal venting tool. He has suffered through so many of my depression and anxiety states that I'm surprised he is still in one piece ( mostly ). I can't bring myself to cause harm on my body. That small ounce of respect I have for myself and wellbeing reminds me that, even though that I'm depressed or suffering an anxiety attack, I should keep my body healthy and don't cause any physical damage to it. Remembering that, I reach for Wozzle and I find myself clawing and chewing on it, feeling the frustration/depression/evil thoughts and voices leave my body and go into him. After crying and clinging onto my beloved bear for a while, sometimes longer than other moments, I start to feel better and think more clearly.
Anxiety is a serious issue. Some people have mild anxiety attacks. Others have worse. Sometimes the trigger is something large or very small. It triggers that small area in your brain where you keep all the negative thoughts and emotions locked up. Once loose we start to battle with it and try to push it back into that mental cage. If we don't have the strength to push it back ourselves, thats when friends and personal comforting objects come into play. We all need someone to be there for us, to help us get out of our rut and see the light of joy again. If we don't have someone to fall upon, we must have a personal and safe comforting item within reach where we can just cradle and hold onto, vent our worries and depression into it, cleansing ourselves of negativity until we feel safe and relaxed. We must do this without hurting ourselves, both mentally and physically. We have to be strong. We must be strong. We are constantly at war with our fears and depression. Only by seeing the good in life, no matter what they are or where they are, we will win every battle.
I am PussyCat and I have anxiety issues. This is Wozzle Bear and he is my comforting item. You are my friends who will catch me when I fall."
- PussyCat ( PC )[/b]
Everyone thinks PussyCat is a very happy go lucky woman whenever I draw her. But like everyone else in the world, she have a down side. I had to draw this to go with her written description. Everyone has an up side and a down side. Like she said, we all must be strong in order to win the war with ourselves.
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since im kinda in the same boat i couldnt help but cry as i see your picture and read your post. thank you for posting this as it gave me some insight and help. i dont know anyway to vent but to self destructive things and thanks to my father not even trying to help me i had nothing i could do. reading this has given me atleast some kind of hope that i can help myself knowing that others can do this then so can i. and if you need help i will try to chat with you as much as i can. and again thank you not only for posting this but giving hope that reaching for help (even from a teddy bear) is possible
I really, REALLY missed that for a long time, Ookami Kemono. Your emotional arts and writings that go straight to the heart and mind...
shadowman1234561
There is always hope if we believe in it. We're never really alone when we don't want to. Good friends will carry us if we reach for them. In the end I have to say, we can only help us on our own, so we have to hold confidence in ourselves and work for it. If we do that, than other people can and will help us to get through every shit that confronts us. Keep strong, I'm trying, too.
shadowman1234561
There is always hope if we believe in it. We're never really alone when we don't want to. Good friends will carry us if we reach for them. In the end I have to say, we can only help us on our own, so we have to hold confidence in ourselves and work for it. If we do that, than other people can and will help us to get through every shit that confronts us. Keep strong, I'm trying, too.
If you know that something is going to bother you, or make you feel down and unsure,
just try to close your eyes, take some deep breaths. Though this is just one of the things
that work for me. For some, this may be easy or hard. Just keep in mind that no one has
control over you but You! If I have to, I will cry it out, and try to stay as strong-willed as I
possibly can. If you can't keep your chin up, fine. I'll keep it up for you and remind you
that you're very special in more ways anyone else could ever see. *hugs*
just try to close your eyes, take some deep breaths. Though this is just one of the things
that work for me. For some, this may be easy or hard. Just keep in mind that no one has
control over you but You! If I have to, I will cry it out, and try to stay as strong-willed as I
possibly can. If you can't keep your chin up, fine. I'll keep it up for you and remind you
that you're very special in more ways anyone else could ever see. *hugs*
"suck it up" or "brush it off the shoulder" etc... It's easier said than done... Our state of mind and the actions of people surrounding us can leave deep scars.. Some are visible, and some are so deep they can only be seen with a compassionate eye. How can you talk to someone about your problems if you're not sure he /she will understand you or start judging you? It's hard. What I do to relieve the stress? training, I talk to people I know & trust. When I really need to let some tears out, I hold my feather stuffed pillow as tight as I can, and cry, scream, bite in it. My mom suffers from depression and she is medicated for that, I help her as much as I can without forcing/imposing myself to her or my help will be automatically be pushed away and make the state of mind worse. All I am saying is, if you know someone who is dressed or anxious, let them you're here for them, that you will not judge them but you will understand them.... (Together we can understand each other... Take care mom)
Love&peace for any state of mind
Victory&triumph over our battles
Love&peace for any state of mind
Victory&triumph over our battles
*gives her a biiiiiiiig huggle* We all have these times in our lives and I am also really mads at people whom say to just get cheerful again and to stop making them sads! Well, life is messy and I think we all deserve some sads and anxietyto help us through it. As long as wehave loved ones and plushies and such, we can always come back out when we feel good and ready!
:/ sometimes it is so hard... i used to be so anxious and depressed a lot of the time i just couldn't sleep, i would toss and turn or end up staring at the ceiling for hours trying to will myself into unconsciousness, and nobody around me seemed to understand it... "just close your eyes and lay still... stop worrying and go to sleep..." unfortunately for my body i couldn't even harm my stuffed animals, because of what they represent to me, and thus there are barely visible marks on my arms all these years later... we have our moments of weakness, we have our moments of strength, and we have ourselves... i have permanent reminders of the hurt i have felt in my life, and they are reminders of how far i have come out of the darkness and into the light. sometimes the skies are cloudy, but there is always sun behind. hold on tight, and never let go.
You are not alone in your struggles. As I read the description of the image, "to this day" by Shane Koyczan
I can't pretend I don't know what you are going through, but I do know this for certain. You are loved, loved more than you have ever thought possible. It may seem cliche, but Jesus loves you. He loves you enough to be there for you, even if you don't want him. He has blessed you with your gifts and to be surrounded by a large following who stand with you against the things that try to stand in your way. So, can you please smile, for me? I hate to see someone so happy be sad.
Have an awesome day, and I pray you will find peace from the depressing thoughts.
I can't pretend I don't know what you are going through, but I do know this for certain. You are loved, loved more than you have ever thought possible. It may seem cliche, but Jesus loves you. He loves you enough to be there for you, even if you don't want him. He has blessed you with your gifts and to be surrounded by a large following who stand with you against the things that try to stand in your way. So, can you please smile, for me? I hate to see someone so happy be sad.
Have an awesome day, and I pray you will find peace from the depressing thoughts.
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