Well it seems that this is something that used to give me a lot of strength. Feeling weak and powerless with someone, for at least 1 hour a day or 1 day at weekend and roleplaying being the weaker part or the "sub". Heh they were a lot of people, not just my daddy saila, still i miss him more because he always made me feel special.

Heh i miss it because somehow it charged me and i could stand the life no mattering what it was tossing at me, somehow i think that i am being broken so easily lately because i have to be strong 24/7 and now i dont have even a little moment to rest from all this

Heh suddenly i somehow ended being only with my little brothers and/or sons, that i love (and am great friend with the persons behind the characters), they make me feel good and with a lot of peace.

well i say bye bye today, lets see you latter *smiles* and oh sorry this pic seemed too cute, Saila i wish i could color it