i was reflecting a bit so i decided to share some of my darker feelings with you all
i could honestly say that i would not wish this on my worst enemy.
enjoy~

The worst kind of loneliness



The worst kind of loneliness is the one that starts,
Very close within your heart,
But also resides within your brain,
That wreaks your body with aches and pains,
I feel myself begin to shift,
To someone I think I want to belong with,
My heart fills up with joy and hope,
But brain begins to worry and mope,
It cheats me out of lust,
It cheats me out of happiness and trust,
Then heart begins to shift its tune,
Given in to pressure from brains mood,
And I am hopeless to there mercy,
For once I have a love in grasp,
And if they give in to my asks,
Then the chase is done,
And my brain has won,
And kills my heart.
But something resides within my soul,
That keeps me alive and keeps me whole,
And someday the chase will not be enough,
And That there is hope for me to find my love,
The one that will sneak by my brain and hold me close without my pain,
And I will find my happy days,
Even when it rains.