Rain was falling. It was just a light shower, but still enough, to dampen anybody's mood.
The moon shone bright on this side of the world, as bright as she could, to give the restless creatures at least a bit of hope for better weather tomorrow.
And there seemed to be only one being left on his paws.
Every step soaked it's paws with more and more of the rain water. but it didn't concern him.
With the hands in his backpoecktes, Urtico walked along the stony way. He walked there every night he tried to think.
Think. How important did it become for him?
His hands formed into fist, he started to bite the collar of his sweaters to pull it up.
He had the feeling to have thought enough.
His steps became more frequent, the rain began to press down harder on him.

What will you do?

This question seemed not to leave his mind. Didn't want to let him free.

What do you want to do, you are alone, anyway!

He tried to shake this thought awake.

That's not true! I'm not alone!

Oh yeah? Who do you've got? One side was hurt by you! The other doesn't trust you! None wants to keep in touch with you! Who do you have left, then?

Urtico wasn't sure if it was the rain, or if it were tears, which was filling his eyes. No, he didn't want to cry!
He cried so much in the last few years! Because of little silly thing. Because of vanities. Because of others.
It became so hard to let good emotions dwell up, und still they were used and abused. The same way he felt: Used, abused, left alone, who could he trust now?

The hedgehog smiled grimly. he closed his eyes and started to hum... "Sag mal weinst du... oder ist es der Regen...?"
He had to giggle, he became so kitschy sometimes.

Still, he didnt want to think about, who was left. This question was just too serious and hurting... Who was left? who could he trust? With whom could he feel cared and good?
He knew, he knew the answer, but it how hard was it to confess it to himself?

Urtico stopped and looked around. Left. Right. Front. behind. Where was he?
He lost is orientation. He stood nowhere, a place he didn't know. but still...
Urtico was still standing on this stony way, but he never followed it this far.
Left of him was a part of a forrest. The leaves already became a golden red for weeks.
There was a bench. The hedgehog wasn't sure, but didn't want to run around in this nothingness anymore.
Again he looked around.
On the other side, there was a wide meadow, where many different flowers grew. Especially the flowers infront of him...
violets.. blue violets. He knew the meaning of those flowers. Again he had to smile, but this time it was more in a melancholic way.

"I give you trust!"

Like he was free of his thoughts, he stepped to those plants and leaned down to them.
Infront of him were three little violest. "Do they even grow in this season?"
All three flowers were open and blooming and were actually shining with might.
Urtico had to, he took his left paw out of his backpoeckt and touched the leaves of this beautiful flower softly.

"I give you trust.."

He repeated those words in his head. But his mean voice didnt want to give him some peace.

Who do you want to give trust? Noone trusts you, you've got noone!

"IT'S ENOUGH!"

Urtico didn't realice, he screamed.
He stood up bolt upright. His face was formed in a rage, his quills erect, the hedgehog was lucky, he could contain himself, so he didnt rip his own clothes apart.

Slowly he turned around and walked to the bench, sat down.
magnetized he watched the violets.
"I give you trust..."
"I give you trust!"
Like a mantra he repeated this meaning.

those guys don't care for you! You are alone!
"So what? I don't need anybody, who doesn't trust me! I don't need people, I can't trust!"
Slowly he realised...
"Yes.."
Tears filled his eyes again, out of realisation.
"Yes... I may be alone... but i don't need to feel lonely. I'm not lonely. Even now, I know, I am NOT lonely! I have friends! I have friends I can trust. Friends, who don't give me the feeling, to be used. Friends who don't accuse me for something, I have never done! i have friends, I can feel comfortable with..."

And what is with those others? They hate you!

"How do you want to know this? And even if... Let them be happy. I will be happy, too. Even without them. Yeah, I liked them, even loved one or two, and I miss those. But this will end someday, too!"

...

The hedgehog sat there for some time. The rain stopped slowly. The road was shimmering, the violets shining in the moonlight.
Urtico smiled.
Slowly he stood up, walked to the flowers and kneeled down infront of them.
"I give you trust..." he picked up the first violet.
"I give you trust..." he picked up the second violet.
"I give you trust..." the last flower was picked.
He knew those flowers would give him faith.
Content, the hedgehog was making his unknown way back home...


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Wow, that was some work X__x All this translating, I hope i didnt make too many mistakes^^.

Well this is a way old idea i had in my mind, but I still think it's a good one, and I'm happy that it was finally realised.

I know I had my ups and downs but I also think that I will survive them and be content and happy.

I hope it's not too "emotional" *giggle* I doesnt have to be, if you read through it! It's rather quite happy and with a nice ending, I'd say.
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Thanks for  gothwolf for doing such a great job! I really love it :)

Art is © by  gothwolf
urtico and story is © by me.