SAVE A BULLET FOR ME!!!!!!!!! On second thought don't, I deserve to suffer.... I shouldn't have accepted you into my life, then there would be no problem. I ask no forgiveness, and no second chance, but I am sorry that I played you, if you can believe that.

babe i want u 2 stop all of this please i still love u & will

now that i think about it FUCK this poem . . . it's not meant to b . . . it's stupid and pointless and is just me upset . . . Matt this isn't us . . . u know this isn't us . . . *bows my head falls to my knees and hugs ur legs* i don't want u to go never . . . I'm sorry i was so mean and all . . . I don't want to hurt u . . . i want to love u and stay committed to u and everything. We don't need this poem, we don't have to die, we don't need the hate filling into our love. Please Matt I really love you and i've never felt this way about anyone but u!!!after u even read this and tell me i will delete this poem and get rid of it because it's not right. We love each other not hate each other . . . and i just don't want to lose u or see u walk out. I want to be there for u forever and always. Sorry i wasn't on last night . . . i know i was away and u probably sent something which my parents read the nosy people they are but idc . . . i will try and b on tonight but i might not because of them and my out late yesterday w/ my friends . . . . but if i'm not it's not cuz i'm mad I swear . . . . I want to talk to u now . . . hehe the beatles again . . . "We can work it out we can work it out" hehe *puts my fingers to stop ur dripping tears* don't cry my fox . . . I love you *opens arms up and waits for u to run back into them so i can carry you home*

I reread it again and just no okay NO . . . i keep making replys because i don't want this to end!!!!!!!!!!! it was just a bad time . . . We'll make it through i know we can . . . do u really think cathy and me r perfect . . . we have good and bad times and i believe that is what makes a good friendship or any relationship . . . so this was a bad tough time so wut . . . i could care less for this poem now . . . I hate it . . . babe please come back to me . . . please i still love u so much that i can't stand this . . . i want u back . . . and idc what u say or do but i still love u and hope that u can come back to me . . . I don't want us to end . . . i felt so happy w/ u and u made me smile and be happy so much and we fit so perfect together please Matt please . . . it's never a second chance or not accepting me into ur life or w/e . . . i just want to forget this all and take u home with me . . . Matt I LOVE U AND I ALWAYS WILL!!!!!!!!! please come back to me