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Title inspired by the Beatles song, "Yesterday"
March 29, 2007, Seth died.
I've never been able to watch, 'The Dark Crystal' the same ever again.
Most of you are not aware of who Seth is, but those 'few' of you who managed to get close enough to me, that I talked are aware of how personal of a topic that is for me. For those of you unaware, he and Mel were my Loves. Lovers, Beloved, whatever terminology you use for such things, I Loved and still Love them both so dearly.
This 29th marks the first year since he died of cancer. He tried to protect me form this pain by trying to push me away, heh. Spent a lot of time protecting Mel, me, and pretty much anyone else. This painful emotion I've been enduring, I wouldn't have it any other way. It was worth every moment I got to spend with them. I've been a far, far better person ever since.
Mel has been out of contact with me ever since because it hurt too much, talking too me. I reminded her of him far, far too much. I promised Seth I would look after her but that's something I've been unable to do, though I truly tried my best.
There's very, very few options left to me now, but even the insecure, closed minded, self centered jerks at Palcomix won't be able to stop me in the end. At best delay me. (Yeah, that's why I hate them so much, for those of you wondering. Banned me out of fear, without a justified reason. A point Seth actually brought to their attention and was going to resign and leave the site, except I made him stay. Why? Krezzy and I are friends, and I didn't want to make things harder losing their #1 Mod.) heh, Seth was even going to tell them about his cancer that night and say they've turned his last few weeks of living into a stupid, High school Drama Annoyance. *sighs*
I Love you Seth, Mel. I know I promised not to cry at this time, every year, but it's just, unavoidable. At least I kept the promise that I smile at this time of year too, and I never stopped drawing!
March 29, 2007, Seth died.
I've never been able to watch, 'The Dark Crystal' the same ever again.
Most of you are not aware of who Seth is, but those 'few' of you who managed to get close enough to me, that I talked are aware of how personal of a topic that is for me. For those of you unaware, he and Mel were my Loves. Lovers, Beloved, whatever terminology you use for such things, I Loved and still Love them both so dearly.
This 29th marks the first year since he died of cancer. He tried to protect me form this pain by trying to push me away, heh. Spent a lot of time protecting Mel, me, and pretty much anyone else. This painful emotion I've been enduring, I wouldn't have it any other way. It was worth every moment I got to spend with them. I've been a far, far better person ever since.
Mel has been out of contact with me ever since because it hurt too much, talking too me. I reminded her of him far, far too much. I promised Seth I would look after her but that's something I've been unable to do, though I truly tried my best.
There's very, very few options left to me now, but even the insecure, closed minded, self centered jerks at Palcomix won't be able to stop me in the end. At best delay me. (Yeah, that's why I hate them so much, for those of you wondering. Banned me out of fear, without a justified reason. A point Seth actually brought to their attention and was going to resign and leave the site, except I made him stay. Why? Krezzy and I are friends, and I didn't want to make things harder losing their #1 Mod.) heh, Seth was even going to tell them about his cancer that night and say they've turned his last few weeks of living into a stupid, High school Drama Annoyance. *sighs*
I Love you Seth, Mel. I know I promised not to cry at this time, every year, but it's just, unavoidable. At least I kept the promise that I smile at this time of year too, and I never stopped drawing!
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Heh what'd they do to you? I was just banned beacuse they were afraid of what I might do. But then, A Mod abuses me, the lead mod defends the abuser and didn't like me saying that. Lemons is such a child. I've often wondered though if Seth's last words to him were taken seriously or if he reacted like a child and ignored the facts.
mostly i just don't like their art, don't like their ideas, and don't like how cutesy their artists act when they post the smut on their page >:/
If he ignores the last words of a dying man, he sounds like the kind of person who will get his own back someday, so I wouldn't worry about him anymore
If he ignores the last words of a dying man, he sounds like the kind of person who will get his own back someday, so I wouldn't worry about him anymore
He pestered me AND my other friends who were girls, for nude pictures if we ever posted ANYTHING online. I did once as a joke, and his messages really stressed me out. Luckily, the Admins of Palcomix don't seem to care their LEAD MODERATOR acts like that. ^_^
.....I wish I could say something to help you, but...I don't know what it would be like to lose someone like you did. I know the pain likely won't go away, but I'm glad to see you where able to move on, and your lover would be too. "The best way to remember the ones we lost, is to live THIS life with them in our hearts, not wait around to join them"
Ahn..... *re-wrote this from scratch several times, unsure of what to say, how to say it effectively*... well, you know how involved I was in that whole scenario. You know how much I know, what I heard, and did.
It feels.... kinda wierd, how much it seems that I did get involved, almost on... 'accident.'
Though active choice of all of us had a lot more to do with it than accident, and I never really did buy into 'coincidence' more than it shoud be given credit for (if at all). Technically speaking, I probably shouldn't've had anything to do with it. But I did.
Well, it's wierd, and I'm sounding wierd, so I'll get to the point:
We are Comrades. And as one, I'll be here to help, even if it just amounts to me just being here.
It feels.... kinda wierd, how much it seems that I did get involved, almost on... 'accident.'
Though active choice of all of us had a lot more to do with it than accident, and I never really did buy into 'coincidence' more than it shoud be given credit for (if at all). Technically speaking, I probably shouldn't've had anything to do with it. But I did.
Well, it's wierd, and I'm sounding wierd, so I'll get to the point:
We are Comrades. And as one, I'll be here to help, even if it just amounts to me just being here.
I remember that day where Mel said she wasn't coming back to Pal. I was heart broken at the time and lost my grampa before christmas. I know when you lose someone close to you that youur always remember them. Every year on the day they died you cry. Even though we wise them we will tresure them always and remember the good about with the times we spent together.
Gives you a big hug
Gives you a big hug
yesterday,
love was such an easy game to play
now i need a place to hide away
oh i believe...in yesterday.
i've lost many who are dear to me too.......my heart goes out to you and my prays to your friends.
isn't it intresting that when you think of younger days,most of the memories are of love,and pain. "Bone crushing hug"
love was such an easy game to play
now i need a place to hide away
oh i believe...in yesterday.
i've lost many who are dear to me too.......my heart goes out to you and my prays to your friends.
isn't it intresting that when you think of younger days,most of the memories are of love,and pain. "Bone crushing hug"
I wish I had some words that would bring you comfort, but I dont. I wish I could say in time the pain will fade, but with a love that strong, it doesnt. I wish I could do more than offer a hug and a sympathetic shoulder to cry on, and if you think of something I can offer, just ask. I too have lost one I love, not the way you have but family, to cancer. I can stand on the brink of my suffering and know the hole you feel swallowed by is infinitely bigger. I have rope, maybe not enough, but I will help anyway I can.
Vartra Antonelli -- Furry, humanitarian, hopefully one day a friend
Vartra Antonelli -- Furry, humanitarian, hopefully one day a friend
Never stop hun, keep walking forward, it is so painful to say goodbye to good friends, specially when they fall prey to illness ,but life goes on, sometimes though, you wanna be strong and sometimes that is not possible , tears do not mean weakness, in this case they show your love for your friend.
Keep remembering him and keep going forward, you are doing it very well, I send ya a hug and a kiss.
Keep remembering him and keep going forward, you are doing it very well, I send ya a hug and a kiss.
Naw, you always stayed away from the Politics. It did always hurt my feelings how little you did to help though. When Lemons was abusing me, even you did nothing. That hurt. But in the end, it wasn't you that turned this mess into a big problem. It was strictly Lemons and Cheetah that MADE the problem. It was you but mostly BBM who chose not to fix it. BBM also chose to make it worse though but that's just the cherry on the cake, he didn't really do much to make it worse.
I don't think you're insecure, closed minded, self centered or a jerk. I think you are innocent, cute, nervous about standing up for what you believe in CERTAIN things! You've proven to me in the past that you 'can' stand up for some things you believe in that's one of the reasons I like you so much. You've got some real passion! ^_^ REAL PASSION! Something a lot of people think they have, but don't. But you do! :)
I don't think you're insecure, closed minded, self centered or a jerk. I think you are innocent, cute, nervous about standing up for what you believe in CERTAIN things! You've proven to me in the past that you 'can' stand up for some things you believe in that's one of the reasons I like you so much. You've got some real passion! ^_^ REAL PASSION! Something a lot of people think they have, but don't. But you do! :)
Life's hard. People pass into and out of each other's lives constantly with the whim of a wind's whisper. Wish I had a way to help you feel better. Hate thinking anyone so nice is dealing with issues like this.
I really need to figure out my recent troubles so I can be online more often again. I've had some online battles of my own on some sites lately with sporadic art hiatuses coming again and again. *hug*
Here's hoping things do turn upward greatly for you in amazing ways soon. ;3
I really need to figure out my recent troubles so I can be online more often again. I've had some online battles of my own on some sites lately with sporadic art hiatuses coming again and again. *hug*
Here's hoping things do turn upward greatly for you in amazing ways soon. ;3
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