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![[COM] Fate of the Cursed Soul (by Neodokuro)](http://d.furaffinity.net/art/maxcoyote/1388083730/1388083730.maxcoyote_maxcoyote-296630.submit.15606.jpg "Click to change the View")
OK... so... PHEW ok... this is that super emotional piece I was talking about. The one I was talking about having a hard time posting. BUT, I'm drunk and at a friends house, so it seems like the best time. XD
ok, so where to start? So, lets talk about the emotional meaning behind my beast form. While alot of things influenced my beast form (like my love for were-wolves), alot of it is also very personal. And I didn't realize this till alot later in my character's life.
All of my characters have ended up being based off of my own personality. I think everyone does this in a way, even if they don't realize it. I feel the more you understand about yourself, the more you'll understand what your characters mean to you as a person. I realized that alot in the last year about Beast Max. I realized he represents a big part of my life. A very dark part of my life, but something I must accept. I have alot of stress in my life, and it causes alot of problems for me personally. Most of it comes from my job. Like, 60% of it. But alot of other parts of my life are stressful. Anyway, without getting into personal details, lets just say that I have to be very emotionally strong to deal with all this.
A little too emotionally strong. I feel it causes me to shut down emotionally and bottle up alot of stuff to stay sane. Most of it anger and frustration. And thus, I think my mind gave birth to my Beast form though my imagination and suppressed stress and anger. Since a fursona represents yourself, my beast form represented the anger inside my own self I repress till it bursts out into a massive beast full of anger and sorrow. A beast that doesn't want to be a monster. A monster that just wants to be happy. A beast that wants to be free of the curse of his own life.
So yeah, pretty heavy shit, huh? Well, it's a pretty heavy piece of art. The way Neo did this made all those realizations stand in the light for me, and hopefully to you. The big idea behind art is to express emotion to others, something speach has yet to master. The feeling, sorrow, anger and regret you see in this drawing is from me. It means everything to me, and shows who I truely am right now in my life. Everyone has a dark side. No one is perfect, and I am no exception. I work hard emotionally and physically for the day I can be at peace and calm the beast inside me.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hhSA9H9Iaqw
Ever since I could remember,
Everything inside of me,
Just wanted to fit in (oh oh oh oh)
I was never one for pretenders,
Everything I tried to be,
Just wouldn't settle in (oh oh oh oh)
If I told you what I was,
Would you turn your back on me?
And if I seem dangerous,
Would you be scared?
I get the feeling just because,
Everything I touch isn't dark enough
If this problem lies in me
I'm only a man with a candle to guide me,
I'm taking a stand to escape what's inside me.
A monster, a monster,
I've turned into a monster,
A monster, a monster,
And it keeps getting stronger.
Can I clear my conscience,
If I'm different from the rest,
Do I have to run and hide? (oh oh oh oh)
I never said that I want this,
This burden came to me,
And it's made it's home inside (oh oh oh oh)
If I told you what I was,
Would you turn your back on me?
And if I seem dangerous,
Would you be scared?
I get the feeling just because,
Everything I touch isn't dark enough
If this problem lies in me
I'm only a man with a candle to guide me,
I'm taking a stand to escape what's inside me.
A monster, a monster,
I've turned into a monster,
A monster, a monster,
And it keeps getting stronger.
I'm only a man with a chamber who's got me,
I'm taking a stand to escape what's inside me.
A monster, a monster,
I've turned into a monster,
A monster, a monster,
And it keeps getting stronger.
___________________
artwork ©
neodokuro 2013
Beast Max & Normal MaxCoyote © maxcoyote 1999-2013
ok, so where to start? So, lets talk about the emotional meaning behind my beast form. While alot of things influenced my beast form (like my love for were-wolves), alot of it is also very personal. And I didn't realize this till alot later in my character's life.
All of my characters have ended up being based off of my own personality. I think everyone does this in a way, even if they don't realize it. I feel the more you understand about yourself, the more you'll understand what your characters mean to you as a person. I realized that alot in the last year about Beast Max. I realized he represents a big part of my life. A very dark part of my life, but something I must accept. I have alot of stress in my life, and it causes alot of problems for me personally. Most of it comes from my job. Like, 60% of it. But alot of other parts of my life are stressful. Anyway, without getting into personal details, lets just say that I have to be very emotionally strong to deal with all this.
A little too emotionally strong. I feel it causes me to shut down emotionally and bottle up alot of stuff to stay sane. Most of it anger and frustration. And thus, I think my mind gave birth to my Beast form though my imagination and suppressed stress and anger. Since a fursona represents yourself, my beast form represented the anger inside my own self I repress till it bursts out into a massive beast full of anger and sorrow. A beast that doesn't want to be a monster. A monster that just wants to be happy. A beast that wants to be free of the curse of his own life.
So yeah, pretty heavy shit, huh? Well, it's a pretty heavy piece of art. The way Neo did this made all those realizations stand in the light for me, and hopefully to you. The big idea behind art is to express emotion to others, something speach has yet to master. The feeling, sorrow, anger and regret you see in this drawing is from me. It means everything to me, and shows who I truely am right now in my life. Everyone has a dark side. No one is perfect, and I am no exception. I work hard emotionally and physically for the day I can be at peace and calm the beast inside me.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hhSA9H9Iaqw
Ever since I could remember,
Everything inside of me,
Just wanted to fit in (oh oh oh oh)
I was never one for pretenders,
Everything I tried to be,
Just wouldn't settle in (oh oh oh oh)
If I told you what I was,
Would you turn your back on me?
And if I seem dangerous,
Would you be scared?
I get the feeling just because,
Everything I touch isn't dark enough
If this problem lies in me
I'm only a man with a candle to guide me,
I'm taking a stand to escape what's inside me.
A monster, a monster,
I've turned into a monster,
A monster, a monster,
And it keeps getting stronger.
Can I clear my conscience,
If I'm different from the rest,
Do I have to run and hide? (oh oh oh oh)
I never said that I want this,
This burden came to me,
And it's made it's home inside (oh oh oh oh)
If I told you what I was,
Would you turn your back on me?
And if I seem dangerous,
Would you be scared?
I get the feeling just because,
Everything I touch isn't dark enough
If this problem lies in me
I'm only a man with a candle to guide me,
I'm taking a stand to escape what's inside me.
A monster, a monster,
I've turned into a monster,
A monster, a monster,
And it keeps getting stronger.
I'm only a man with a chamber who's got me,
I'm taking a stand to escape what's inside me.
A monster, a monster,
I've turned into a monster,
A monster, a monster,
And it keeps getting stronger.
___________________
artwork ©
neodokuro 2013Beast Max & Normal MaxCoyote © maxcoyote 1999-2013
Category All / Transformation
Species Coyote
Size 1280 x 865px
File Size 379.4 kB
Wow dude this is awesome, from where I start? it is a nice art work and the song matched it verynicely done, neodokuro may have done the art but this is more than that, it is full of your fellings and your life experience, something very impresive and inspirational, becase all that you put in that description is very personal and is needed a lot of courage for u to post this here, well done u have my apretiation and support
It's very touching and tragic. I like how the artist brought out a lot of serious emotional pain in this drawing as well as the handling of lighting and anatomy. I myself can relate due to my own problems negative feelings and expierences, as well as my painful battles with my bipolar illness.
Thank you for sharing this personal information. I know it's not easy, but there are a lot of people out there who can relate. You're far from alone, and we're all here for you. We're there for each other. I never thought much about this sort of thing coming out in my art, but there's so much of it and I haven't put any of it up online. For me, it was "Lycaon". He was a concentration of my anger, my sadness, and my fear. I've come so far in understanding and accepting myself for who and what I am, and it's felt like an eternity, but I forget about the monster I had with me back then. I think you've inspired me to bring it back into the light; to remember things we honestly want to forget, even though they are as much a part of ourselves as anything else.
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