I know how that feels, I get it from time to time

I'm pretty sure depression will do weird things to anybody if it's strong enough. But I know exactly how you feel, in times of extreme depression I get very mood swingy, myself. I'll go from being like "Okay, yeah it's not -too- bad.. it'll get better, right?" To "It's hopeless, I'm done.. go away.." Or if I'm really depressed and something's upsetting me I'll rarely get really angry and secluded, I'll just tuck myself away in a seething ball of fluff for a while. And yes.. I tend to make the people around me worry far too much.

Toby, you bring more good into this world than a lot of people do. In fact, probably more than the majority of people do~! You help plenty, and you should be happy and proud to be such a kind-hearted person~ <3
It really does matter, and you're anything but a failure, no matter how much you think it~ I've heard something before, and I still believe it's true to this day. Every kind person can go around and spread joy to another person, and that joyful person will spread to even more, and more, and even more than that. So if you only make even a single person happy, then you're not a failure, because in the end, you've probably by extension made tens, or hundreds, or even more people happy~! You can make people smile and laugh, and I can see why hardly anyone complains about you, what is there to complain about~?
You're a wonderful, likeable, lovable person~ Why you can't agree with them? I don't really know. Maybe you're not giving the thought a chance? Because.. Toby, you really are an amazing person, regardless of what anyone says, you're an amazing, wonderful, awesome person, and at least in my eyes, you always will be ^w^

The ref made me so happy, I'm not going to lie, it nearly brought me to tears for a moment just to finally see it after waiting years to finally have one..~ <3 And you've helped your family immensely, and still are~ You get praised because you deserve it, you get loved because you're an amazing, wonderful person~ And you're doing plenty of good~ You're by no means unimportant or useless. You're important to me, to Faith, and all your friends, and family, and don't forget Oreo 'n your other kittens~ Even if they tend to stare sometimes 'n be judgey puffballs, they still love ya~ X3

But Toby, you've never been in the way, you've never been annoying, you've never really just flat out been wrong before, at least not while I've known you that I can remember, and well.. The only way to fix it would be well.. accepting that you're just not that. You're amazing Toby, you just have yet to realize it..~ <=3

Things will get better with time I'm sure. You need to set a sleep schedule and be adamant about it, even if you're in the middle of something just pick it up the next day. You need to force yourself to eat, even if it's just a little, you can't let yourself get sick and not eat or sleep. You just need to sit back, relax, and take a load off for a day or two. I told ya you should before but I don't believe you actually did. Just.. no stress, nothing bad or worrying, just put it all out of your mind for a day or two and let your body and mind rest like they so deserve. I know you can do it Toby, I've known ya long enough to know.. There's nothing you can't do if you set your mind to it. I believe in ya~ <3

Everyone hates themselves one way or another, even if it's just a little, but too much isn't a good thing, too much of anything, isn't a good thing , especially that. For all of the bad things you have you need to realize, you have good things about you too~ You're kind, caring, thoughtful, talented, smart, beautiful, fun..~ I could go on and on, and if you want me to, I will~ I just want you to know, you really are a spectacular person, Toby, and don't you let anyone tell you otherwise. Including yourself! *Hugs you very tightly*

Oh gosh, there's no way y comment will be able to compare to roo's. This is a beautiful picture, but that's aside the point.

You need to believe all of the thing that people have been saying because they are all true! Remember when I said that I was proud of you by doing all of this? I meant every word.

I wish I knew what exactly was causing all of this self loathing and hate, but once I do find out, I'll do whatever I can in my power to stop it! That's what we Nikkis are good for after all..doing our best to make other people happy. I love it when you act all dorky and dumb, it's entertaining and amusing for everyone. Andgodyouareadorblewhenyougetthatway. And as he said, we all feel that way about ourselves sometimes. Just that feeling of uselessness, even I feel that way sometimes. But it always goes away in the end..because I remember that I have my Toby there.. <3

Anyways, do whatever you can to keep feeling that way. I'll do whatever I must to make you if I really have to!

I've felt that way too multiple times.
I dont have much to say, but I want to say something.
No matter how we feel, we always know how we are doing. If we truly want to feel what the people around us think of us, we have to know and believe that we could.
You are a very kind person, and that is a very admirable quality that you have. You aren't a failure, nobody is, and we all have to know that. Just believe that you can feel the nice ways people think of you. If you do, then you will! I didn't have much to say, but I wanted to at least try and help you. We believe that you can feel better. You just have to believe that you could yourself. You'll feel better. We know that you will. All I have left to say is to keep up the good work.

oh my god... wow... thanks for letting me know, or other people know and stuff....
it's really weird because i'm pretty sure i have the same feelings happen to me almost all the time. i may not know everything you are having trouble withm but the least i can say is, i do understand how you can feel, and how much it hurts to try to do things, that should be any trouble at all.

all i can do, i guess, is hope that you can find that special something that'll make youthe person you want to be with nothing bad about it!