I know EXACTLY how you feel Kurra, EXACTLY. And I wish I had some advice. All I can offer is try not to let your feelings consume you. Accept your feelings, acknowledge them, work to change them, but DO NOT let yourself be controlled by them.

Yeah, I know better....is why I vent by making kinda cool arts instead of letting it consume me. anyway I'm mostly over it~

I know and understand how that goes Kurra, in my case it was grass always greener somewhere else, that blinds me from looking at what I own. Everyone is different and each of us faces different situations, what looks shiny and bright in your eyes may hides dark side you do not know of. But you are not alone, you should never be alone *hugs* I am actually at the down side of a lot of stuffs right now trying to figure out what my next step should be....and trying to stop being lazy :P

hmm I am honored to be drawn as a way to vent, keep it up and draw more :) and try not to assume what anyone else thinks

thank you and thank you. We seem to be in the same hole. and in being lazy I AM SOOOOO THAAAT aaaaah
and hey, I'd rather put my artskill into making something for someone who deserves it a lot :>

how about iron artist challenge and draw stuffs for your friends? It doesn't have to be extreme and can be like, draw something for something every 3~5 period, no rush and still being productive :)

No, iron artist would be ruinous

Aaaaaawwwwww......... what a cute face