**Warning!! This is not any form of venting or anything, this is an applied theory from years of experiences from multiple people. I am not the only one who has faced this alone, which is why this will be used publicly. These will be long, articles and it is not mandatory to read each one. These are theories I've developed and trying to correct. This is for educational use.**

Within the bounds of our pasts, present, and future, no one is ever sure
when there will be a tear in any form of bond. whether its from friends, loved
ones or even family. It is usually clouded and concealed to lash out when we are not expecting it. Ultimately we can never stop a sudden end, simply because every beginning will have an end at some point. Even if we create a never ending story, it will end when there are no more writers or story-tellers. Regardless, an end is never really a bad thing...unless we make it. Something in us that gives us a reason to feel torn, hurt, even shattered when something ends. Emotions are one of the reasons, and are a very strong component to our everyday life. Whether its art, music, or even everyday life, our emotions play a toll in our actions. It is the spice for our best delicacies, the soul within a musical note, and the tone of our art that drives meaning. The more we use this as a helpful tool, we begin to develop a groove. But what happens when that groove...ends?

We start to slowly do less and less of what we used to do, slowly lose interest, or even give up. Why do we spiral down so much from growing off balanced? A way to explain this would be as how we maintain balance with ourselves. Our sense of balance is sensitive because of how the water in our heads, in the inner ear, move around. It is why when we spin so much we get dizzy. Our emotional groove is that same feeling. We get out of control and spiral out, and immediately lose the groove from its original position. This is a sudden end, but not a permanent one. The only way it will be permanent is if we deem it to be. We all go through hard times, even off days, but if we say we truly quit...eventually we come back and pick up from where we left off. Sometimes doing far better than before, as if rising from your ashes anew. Or we learn new things to progress further. Only by accepting your own defeat will lead to a complete end. To prevent this....never give up. You may take a break, whether short or long, and come back to it. Chances of success while doing this would be from 75-95%.

But emotions are not really just for people who use it. Those who are heartbroken, lonesome, even drowning in a fictional ocean of depression lose this emotional balance. Looking at the origin, we grow an emotional connection with a person or goal. We keep maintaining this bond, regardless of strength, and soon...there is a break in the bond. Any random even may have broken this bond...so the emotional connection is now off balanced. We do not have that connection that we worked so much to build and maintain...and it just disappears.

Why a sudden shift of moods when there is a break? It is the amount of chemicals we produce in our brain. Dopamine, serotonin, norepinephrine, and possibly other neurotransmitters keep control with these strong emotions. Fluctuation of levels would result in changes of mood and emotions. Not everyone has an exact or proper way of distribution of these chemicals, but it goes back to what is an exact level to start? If we reduce dopamine to a fixed position, slightly above 0%, we lose emotions completely. We would function as a machine. But without any extra features and automatic control, we wouldn't function at all with such low levels.

So why is it that people go through different stages of loss? Some people lose a family member and brushes the event off their shoulder the next day, yet some take years to adjust with the loss. This is now going to a position where there is no exact number. The way that each person not only thinks differently, but acts and copes differently as well all fall upon a probability scale. We can arrange people with different ranges of emotion and coping mechanism, but we would never stop. especially if the ones we previously placed in a group shift in emotion.

There is no place to put people in groups depending on coping mechanisms or current mood, because eventually there will be a change. One person can own a dog and have him for years upon years, where as another would have mice and go through lose year after year. The mouse owner will eventually become used to a loss and will suffer less, yet never become uncaring. But when the dog owner loses their pet....they will not be used to a loss, especially if it lasted so long. Emotional attachment, emotional bonding... regardless of how it is put, or how to interpret it... we can never be sure when there will be an end...but we can endure it and keep moving forward.

an end is never really a death, that is just one factor. An end could be a fierce change of opinion, loss of attraction, a growing annoyance, egoism, hypocrisy, abuse, extreme levels of wrath, greed, and envy...

No matter how much we know of the person, how much we expect the end to happen...the moment we come face to face with the end....our emotions will shatter into pieces. If you are able to pick up the pieces after, even if it is near impossible to mend back together, we are able to take a step forward. Even if all we have is a nano-meter of our emotion left, eventually it will be whole again.


art by : me