Well I drew this in 2007 actually...I just put 2008 cause I found it again.

I dont remember if I told you all if I had been on my so called 'death' bed cause the doctors were worried that I was not going to make it...it was when I was living with my room mates in Portland...my pneumonia came over me as the flu came and I was bed ridden for 3 months...I couldnt do a thing...I couldnt walk or move without being in darrastic pain...I needed help from somebody so that I could get up to eat or go to the bathroom...as bad as that may sound...

But...lying there in that bed...feeling weak and faint...pain surrounding my body...as my lungs were close to failing...my mind was taken over and it hurt me so much to draw this...but I drew it anyways...I needed to get it out...my heart was being touched...and I feel like someday I will meet my special someone...

You know...it may be odd cause the doctors say I might've died if my lungs got any worse...which is why my mother was mad at my family cause none of them came to see me...you have to see...Im sort of self hating...and I feel like nobody cares about me...people do indeed say Im attractive and hella sexy...but no one acts upon those words really...maybe I push them away?

*deep breath* Well...I feel like my diety has something in plan for me...and which is why Im still alive...here today...thank you Raion...for your warming embrace...and purifying my lungs so I can breath once again.