It has been a long time since I even admitted this, some friends and I in real life got together since it's been 9 years and some odd months since a valuable friend of ours was lost to cancer.

And even though no one but her best friend and her father knows... I still feel guilty for making a woman out of her. I don't know why I do because every one online thinks it was a wonderful thing to grow up with someone as friends only to not only find out that you love each other(I always did long for her but was too much of a coward) but as well she got to taste what that love was and to feel loved like a real woman should(and we lost our virginity to each other). I wrote this today when I went to her grave with 9 black roses. She always was different and liked black roses.

And I still don't get why the 's are ? marks so I do apologize.

Refresh it if you see it, it should work now, I forgot I copied from word to .txt so yeah.