I deserve to stay here. Causing people so much stress about my mental health, thinking I could learn to look after myself before others.
I've spent my whole life caring for other people...I was told it was time I repaired myself and take some time to heal...but how can I do that when my world is crumbling at my paws.

Mum thinks i'm selfish and lazy...just because I have psychosis/schizophrenic episodes and breakdowns, meaning I need time to heal.
My stepdad most likely hates me...for who I am.
My Grandparents are both very ill...i'm so worried.
My is being abused by his housemates in his house...I can't defend him from them as he would most likely be kicked out.
I can't eat, can't sleep...losing the will to fight, even though that was lost a long time ago.
Doctors think i'm crazy...
Shrink's think i'm going to crack and finally lose my mind.
I get suicidal thoughts almost hourly...I live next to train tracks...so its pretty easy for someone to hop the fence.
My anxiety is stopping me from leaving the house/getting on buses, trains and into cars...
Depression is taking away my will to build or create...
Our house is falling apart...big hole in the roof over my bedroom so its cold.

I'm so stressed I keep bursting into tears, getting severe headaches and pain all over my body...

Urgh...just...I can't anymore...i'll try to smile...but its hard.