I've got a friend like this...always talks about some form of death...

It is very hard to find very close friends.

But,even the admiration of another can be enough sometimes.
Though I don't know your situation,I will say it is sometimes best to just smile on and wait to find what you want.

I allways smile and look happy. Just sometimes want to show my emotional condition

Indeed I do to

I would. .

Hugs close

Mrrrkk .. thank you

Hey! What the hell is wrong with you? Still suffering from PCD? You know... if you need "close" friends - geographically close - I can't help you. But if you need someone to talk with, someone who you can trust, someone who can understand you... just talk to me. 'Cause I knew you since we were sixteen. And even if the time divided us, that doesn't mean I don't care anymore. I just wish we could talk more often...
And yes. I would miss you.

It's normal to have this kind of feelings, specially even more if you don't see way outs. But in life you have to be strong for yourself, even when you think there's no one for you, you can always count on people even in places you less think about, for instance your parents, family and friends both online and irl.

One has to be sure in life to succeed and always know things are going to get better and if they don't, try to see the good things of life, go on a trip and enjoy yourself, Because life has much much to offer, you just have to find a way to it and when you did, you know it was all worth it.

Hope it helps my friend ))