Jealousy, an irrational emotion, akin
to feelings, just or unjust, therein,
where hatred poisons the mind, to begin,
to displace and unbalance, and make patience wear thin.

When meaningless words get under his skin,
and emotional outbursts cause much chagrin.
When he finally transcends the original sin..

Beware the green eyed monster within.

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Background drawn by EROCKERTORRES of DeviantArt.
Original concept by TehJadeh of DeviantArt

I saw these a while ago, the, and I decided to give my own a go with the theme of my own shameful vice, Jealousy.

This is actually quite a personal piece for me. Over the years, I've had my heart broken many times, and although I never gave up on finding someone to love (which I'm very glad I didn't!), each and every one of those crossroads left it's mark on me.

Jealousy is a very confusing emotion, a fear of being replaced, to be second rate to someone else. To lose someone or something you're emotionally invested in. I always do my best to trust, to have faith, but in the end we're only human - and the invisible scars on my heart make me anxious. They make me insecure.

I may be uncontrollably jealous and protective of the people I love - but that's only because I don't want to lose them, the irony of which is not lost on me. Some days, though, it's just too difficult to contain the unrelenting fury that hides behind the calm exterior.

In that regard, I am weak, and I am glad I have someone that is patient and understanding enough to reassure me that I am second best to nobody in her eyes. That she'll always be there when I need her most, to calm the green-eyed monster that lurks inside me. I love her so very much.