I know this feel all too well.

.. *tears up, and huggles*

Thanks. ^^ <3

You're totally welcome. ^^

ow I would visit you If I could -.- we could work in arts together heh

I've yet to meet a fellow artist in person. As in I've never met another person who does art. Period.
I mean it's nice in that it helps us artists stand out more, but there's also a longing to connect with fellow imaginative minds!

I know, right? *pats* cheer up ^^ maybe you could choose one or two days in the week to just relax before not artstic job and hang out

*raises his paw* ...I'm your friend..I think I am...you have friends but...they are just far away at times. ^.^ Don't feel lonely, just...put a smile on, and laugh more- it's contagious!

This is true. ^^ It's rough living in the middle of nowhere.
I love a good laugh and am always looking for good comedies to watch.
Then again, I have an odd sense of humor. Literally no one I know in person shares my humor.
That's why I tend to be rather aloof and keep to myself 99% of the time.

ohmygosh! say a movie quote! I want to try and guess it!

Man, if I knew a good movie quote, I'd whip one out!
But I'm more of a series person. I've especially been rewatching my favs.
The Office, 30 Rock, and Parks & Rec are my top 3 funny series. <3

The Office is fantastic! Dwight is my favorite! ...but I think maybe because Jim picks on him.
And I've really started to enjoy Parks & Rec. Have you seen that episode where umm...oh frick what's his name?! Oh! Ron Swanson- when he gets a shoe shine and moans?! It's hilarious!

Ron Swanson is the best! Andy (the shoe-shiner in that episode) is a close second for me. XD
It's just such a great series and so worth sticking with. I wish there was a name for that exact comedy type so I could find more like it.
It's hard to search 'Comedy series that feels like a documentary of the people's lives and relationships' in Google.
Hahah~

Very true, very true...Hmmm...Oh! Brooklyn Nine Nine is HILARIOUS! The first three episodes introduce the characters so they aren't THAT funny. But after that, once you get to know the characters...I cry some times because it's so funny.

Wow. Sorry, I'm kind of speechless at that. Wish I could help. *hugs* :X(

For now, dis hug will do. *hugs back* ^^

I know the feeling all too well too :T

I know this as well. If you are ever up for a knock on your skype I've been told I can simulate that as a person knocking on your door pretty well. :3

I literally chuckled so this was totally worth reading hahah. XD Just imagined a 'knock-knock' sound effect.

Well it's good I got a chuckle and a smile from you from a simple post. ^,^
Keep your chin up Feralise because not all is lost. You may not be able to have that knock on the door right now, but that doesn't mean your friends aren't waiting on the other side for a chance to knock.

Same here. That's why I try hard to make it to fur meets and such. But even then, work seems to get in the way. But if we didn't work, how would the bills get paid?

Exactly! That's a huge reason why 99% of my posted work is all commissioned work and a mere 1% is personal/vent art such as this.
When I sit down to do art, I reason that I'm better off working on something someone's paid for rather than allotting myself any time.

I right there with you, and with relationship after relationship failing, i feel at my whits end sometimes.
We artists, we gotta stick together -bear hugs-
Keep your chin up. Something good always comes from a hard worker

*hugs back* Thank you.
I really try to stay true to that thought, that just around the bend there's something/someone who will make it all worth while.
That I just have to keep up and stay strong and keep my eyes open for the opportunity once it appears.
Thanks again for the kind words. |3

*knock knock*

Hehe~ X3

It's a struggle. Completely. Along with school, and work. I barely have time for art anymore. I barely have time for anything. I'd love to see my friends, I'd love to go outside and run along the trails again. I sympathize, completely. It feels like a trap at times, a hole that keeps sinking deeper. But things can let out, there's always a break in the storm. Whether a vacation, or holiday, or maybe circumstance where you suddenly find what you've been looking for and you can now take some time to take a deep breath and breathe in some life every once in awhile. I know it will happen to me eventually. And I know it will happen for you.

I am sorry to hear you are feeling this way, I'm in the same boat right now as well. But it gets better, things usually always do. It just takes its time turning around. Til then, wish I could offer something more helpful. Hope you keep your head on your shoulders. It's always nice to see work done by you and to see your life updates.

Thank you for the encouraging words. It's nice to feel things such as this in common with others.
I'll try to keep my head up. I'm also glad my lil life updates such as this aren't unwelcome.
I stay quiet most of the time to avoid ever being a downer. ^^; So it's nice to let it out and not feel worse for it.

You're very welcome. I get what you mean, I'm often worried that I come off as complaining all the time whenever I talk about my job being less than fair to me. But everyone needs to vent. And I am lucky to have a special lady in my life that picks me up when I'm feeling low.

But never feel bad about sharing your feelings. And yeah, this situation can be very common. I know another artist in the same boat right now too. But things eventually get better.

Have you and Bawnii ever met in real life? I've always just assumed so.

We haven't, actually. We hope to someday, be it at a con or just hanging out.
I guess it's a good thing that we seem to be friends who are already that cool with each other. xD

Wow this hit a soft spot today, As weird as it is and I'm sorry Is nice to know I'm not only in this feeling. But I'm sorry you feel like this. Hopefully things will look brighter soon.

One day you'll be sitting there working and you'll hear that knock in your door.
You'll peer out into the world to be faced with two friends smiling back at you.
Holding your favourite drink and some take-out sushi ready for us to all eat together while we sit and watch Lord of the Rings all day together.
You'll hear another knock, excited that another friend has come that we invited specially for you.
You'll look out the door once more with such hope to be faced with a big brown, looking a little bit to the left face..... That's right Fera...
Even the duttle is here for you.

For real gurl, one day we'll be there for you, and that excitement will come right back into your life.
You're such an important person in my life, and I hope that I can make you as happy as you've made me over these almost 3 dang years, gurl.
<3 You're a wonder in my life and I can't wait to see you grow and find true happiness.
I love you a lot.

I lost it at the duttle. Just.. lost it. Like Loaf jumped off my lap I was laughing so hoarsely.
This little story just brightened my day a hundred fold. Just when I think you've said all the sweetest things a person could say, you go and out do yourself.
But who could outdo Bawnii but Bawnii herself? Nobody, that's who. It's been so long, 3 years like whoa, a flash and suddenly here we are.
What's funny is alot of folks assume we already met irl at some point, so when it happens, it's just overdue fate or something.
Just know that even when I get down and quiet like this, the thought of quoting something to your actual face makes the corners of my mouth twitch til I find myself grinning if not laughing.
Fuckin' B. I love you alot in return, gurl. Real talk.

I'm honestly so stoked for the moment that I open a door and see you on the other side. I'm going to jump onto you and hug you unbelievably hard with my tiny little self and violently shake and scream about how much I missed you and I haven't even met you yet.
I feel like I've known you forever. We've clicked from the start, and I can't wait to see how we'll fare with this crazy friendship in the future! I certainly plan on coming out to see you as soon as I can, cause that's a really important thing to me.
Heck maybe even Leah and I can come road trip it out to see you, that'd be way awesome! uWu
I do my best to be the best for my friends. Especially those who mean the world to me.
You so happen to be one of my most precious friends ever, and I love you. ;;
<3 Exactly.

Exactly.


Exactly.







Exactly.

;n;
that feel....

I've definitely been there, esp with living in such a rural area. You get in the cycle of the grind and it's hard to see the positive things in life.
I know that long distance friends are great but having someone there physically is different. You need it..
I too find myself longing for the days where I had someone to hang out with on a whim, whether it be a phonef call or a text away. Now all of the people I like and care about are a good 5 hrs drive away (at least) now that Im back in that crazy rural close-minded town I grew up in. I've never felt like I belong here, so making friends here is difficult..

I wish I lived closer tbh but I definitely plan on visiting you with Bree. It's decided already tbh. I know it's not a remedy for the problem at hand but maybe at least somethin' to look forward to??
I think you're an amazing person, tbh and you've been a stellar friend to the person I love, so I think you're definitely worth knowing.. just so you know im just a IM away if you wanna talk.. and if you ever wanna text just shoot me your number!

Keep you head up, nothing like this is permanent. Life is always in a state of fluctuation and I'm sure soon someone will come into your life and they will be there to keep you company, to be your friend. And they will probably be company you actually deserve.. hehe tbh friends sometimes come out of the weirdest scenarios. Well, relationships in general do. Like, some guy you run into at the gas station once could end up being yo hubbybubby later, LIFE DOES THAT STUFF.
Just don't get bogged down, remember you have people in your life that are really amazing and quality friends; they just aren't there to actually physically give you hugs and go out for some beers.
ajdalsdklk feel better, okay? You rock. forreals

I wish I could hop back 10 years and be in the position where I could afford to go to cons and travel and stuff again.
Someday I hope this will be possible again before I get much older. xD If anything, no joke, I really would like to try living in Colorado someday.
Kansas is nice and it's home, but I'd feel I wasn't ever really living if I didn't try to live away from home.
So whether it's you both visiting me or me visiting you both out in CO, it'll def happen for sure! |J

I understand this feeling entirely.


I'm about to be 24 in 29 days. I moved to a whole different state to better my business and I'm 11 hours away from Home. I go to work. Come home.. Work more. I go to cons and all but in the in-between. It's always just work and it's literally all I have in life. :(

I feel like I planned for bigger, brighter things. But that in exchange for success, I lost a lot more. I don't even like this town moved into.


Ugh. I know exactly how you feel. <3 If you ever need a random hard-working artist to vent to or just chat with. You can always note me, hun. v u v


I really wish you the best. I pray good vibes and feelings will come your way soon. <3

Tell that to me.
Finishing college as an engineer, about to leave home, about to start workingwork..
And Im 21 yet
Where did my adolescence go?

Best wishes,
And remember,
Friends and family. Don't you ever forget who they are, or were.. never!

You just need to make more efforts. You are can have friends, everyone can :)

Just try again and again ;)

I can really relate to this... I find myself existing only in this small corner of my apartment, working and doing not much of anything else. I am trying hard to make time for myself, because it's healthy to do so. But it's a hard habit to form, and often impossible because of deadlines. Wishing you more opportunities for time outside and with friends! <3

Heh, exactly. It's good in that it shows holding a well raises set of disciplines and that you respect the work of being an artist, but I suppose that's the downside to being self-employed in any manner. Your time is what you decide to do with it and more often then not, using it for others, even through art, seems a better way to spend it. Art also can help take your mind off outside pressures or problems and let you just escape your life for a bit.
Thank you and I wish you well in return!^^

I know that this is something that has become a huge joke online about so-called "90s kids," but I feel that not only is there a difference between adulthood and childhood relating to friendship and social interaction but there is some truth to the whole thing about there being a huge difference between the 90s and today in that regard. You have to admit that there was a huge shift in the way people interacted after the 1990s due to various things such as people becoming afraid of each other after 9/11 and especially the rise of the internet and computers replacing face-to-face interaction.

During my commission streams, I played Doug and I'm currently playing Hey Arnold, and I noticed just how radically different things were a mere decade and a half ago where everything required face-to-face interaction, people went outside far more, people trusted and befriended each other far more in their neighborhoods, even within a city like in Hey Arnold, and people didn't feel deprived without stuff like smartphones and online social media.

It's so incredibly true. I mean I watched the series 'Cheers' because I remember my parents watching it when I was in gradeschool. The lifestyles of people in the late 80's to the 90's is so drastically different then now. When I see people walking around, parents with kids, friends at a party, everyone's got these down-cast faces with softly-lit profiles from their phone's light. Folks no longer are forced to make an effort to interract with others in person and responses/replies can be sent so immediately that when they don't come, people know instantly that someone is avoiding them or not interested in their thoughts. A generation caught behind a screen, more brutally honest than ever and made hollow from the lack of love to be found anymore. :( Whoa, sorry to get really deep there, just sorta made me really think for a min. Hah. But thank you for sharing this with me!

I remember that when I was a kid who never used the internet, not only did I not spend time on the computer but I never played video games either. I didn't even have action figures. I built structures with Legos and wooden blocks. I read books. I wrote books. I drew pictures. (Though as evident from my current lack of skill I didn't draw consistently.) I played pretend. I did science experiments. I cooked and baked. I'm pretty sure that the majority of things I've learned in my life I learned outside of school; not only life skills but facts. (And even then I loved animals.)
However, once I got on the computer, I stopped doing all that and now I'm plugged in. Admittedly, had it not been for being plugged in, I would've probably not only never became a furry but any sort of geek and would've remained more of a "nerd" who was far more into academic pursuits even as geek pursuits became mainstream.
TBH, I think I would've been a lot healthier mentally, and also physically, had I never discovered this part of the internet. I just know that sometime around the age of 14 or 15 my life changed forever. (Then again, all of my friends followed more or less the same path in high school out of some kind of coincidence even if they weren't like that when I first knew them in elementary school, and at least a couple of them even became furries without any influence from me.)

I know how you feel. Being a grown up has its perks, but it really does suck sometimes. Most of my friends that I have in real life I see maybe once a month at most, and even the ones that I do see every day are usually busy with something or we unfortunately aren't close. My online friends are usually busy or doing something with someone else, and when they are available to talk I'm usually busy with college.

Life is a journey, I guess. Sometimes, that journey requires that you go solo for a little while. Even knowing this, everything in life is temporary. This phase will pass and you will meet people, it's inevitable.

So do your best to keep your chin up and be proud of the accomplishments that you make during this time. It's not time wasted, it's time spent building who you are as a person.

That last line really caught me especially. It made me think of how I was consistently in a relationship from age 15-26, never a break between and because of that, I never grew as a person during those years.
So when I was finally single, I finally started learning about who I am and what I believe in matters and as you put it, building who I am as a person. I've never gotten to know myself as much in my life as I have these past 3 years. I've come to learn how precious people can be to me and how to be a better friend in return. So the next time I meet someone, and we click, I'll feel more confident being myself and knowing what we have is genuine, be it friendship or beyond. :)

I know exactly how you feel

Sadly I feel the same, art takes a lot of time and it's hard to find some free time to chill with friends, I use to call friends to spend the day around while I'm drawing.

Man, I wish I had even that! It's a bummer having my own place, all nicely furnished and with consoles/games/couch area that folks could hang in and visit, but I have no one to come over!
Blergh. :c

aw I feel the same way! ;o;

All...all my feels! T^T

I wont say I know exactly how you feel, because it affects us all differently... but my routine is pretty much the same. I go into work, enjoy what I do and the people I work with. At the end of the day however, I have nowhere to go but back to my place. There is family here where I live, but I don't really interact with them all that much.. Nor do I really know anyone in the area still after living here for awhile. If I didn't have my job, which I put all my energy into, I wouldn't know where I'd be.

I mostly fill my afternoon with either reading/music/browsing, but sometimes I wish I could just sit with a few friends and do the same thing, regardless if its boring or not.. but I know I'll never find anything unless I go out and look. One day I'll have to muster that courage.

I hope you find something to fill that space.

This was so well put I could picture it perfectly. It's so inline with how I feel at times. Being introverted or home-bodied isn't a bad thing, we just enjoy the simpler things in life.
A good movie to share with a friend, going for a walk, or just talking face to face, making someone laugh and just in general, human connections are all we love in life.

Thank you so much and I wish the best to you in return! :)

I wanna hug you right now ! XD that img was so cute XDDD sorry.

sounds trite but happiness is a matter of attitude, find the things that gives you pasion and do them!

I live alone too, and work drawing all the day and sometimes at night too.... but try to see the good things you have, you are very talented, maybe find the pasion in your art, and eventually use it for make some good friends and enjoy more life. I dont know you, but I wish you success and a better mood for you everyday life!

I used to think this was the reality of getting older, of growing up.

That things could change only in this one, inevitable direction.

Not so long ago, I learned how completely fucking wrong I was.

And that remains the single most important thing I've ever learned.

*sighs* so true...

D'awwww, I know this feeling, too.

Chin up! You've always got friends here, even if they feel far away. :D