I have been going through a hella lot lately...and is all so about time I drew something very nice for myself. Even if it's a little bit of sad, venting art..but I needed to get it out...

(P.S. I am feeling much better now, but I loved how this picture was looking and I so wished to finish it, such as I did. :3 )

There was all ways one person in my life I need most..and sometimes I felt like the reason why she avoided me...was to avoid a fight...which angered me more and the anger bottled deep inside... darkness slowly felt like it was consuming me...I snapped out.. on top of everything happening..they said something to me, that I never EVEN MENTIONED or said I was going to do... and I just had enough I snapped and roared... I was just done with everything.... I exiled myself from everyone for a few days... to clear my heavy mind and be by myself..

Why is it..everytime I say something to them... that they see only hate and words twisted and confused...and when I try to explain.. they only get nastier and turn against me even more till in the end.. I am nothing more then a monster...? A creature that will only be avoided and left alone... till the ones who made me feel this way...act like everything never happened to avoid even more conflict..? It kills me inside that things can't be settled... even though I miss them... and they say they love me.... is there really happiness... when things can't be resolved... and where we can't work together... to make things right...?
of course there is fighting in any relationship... but, we learn and that's what makes us grow together...
I'm never saying I am sorry for what I have said... they had brought it onto themselves... Somethings are my fault yes... but.. who is really the true instigator in the end...?

Stop living in a fantasy...because that is what is breaking us apart...
Work with me...
Be there for me like I have always been there for you....
somedays.... I feel as if you don't care....
... I'm not trying to be clingy, I gave you your space...but I feel as if it maybe to much....

In the end...I never truly feel...happy...

..... I feel alone.....
..... so....
...alone....



(lyrics on the picture are inspired by the song here --- > https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P6T7v74UAWs )