I have to tear apart sweet feelings just to forget somewhone that was so dear to me, somebody who was so close than my life wasnt completly full. this person found a way to get so deep into my heart that keeping him out of my life hurts so much. I wish things werent like this, and I hate myself for thinking stuff but well.... time will let me be happy, Im pretty shure of it. but still, I find myself crying in dreams and waking up with tears, that has never happened to me.