vent art?

new character?

it might be foolish of me to put so much stock in my ability to Art. but it is who i am and i don't know what to do or who to be without it. when i have nothing else, it's ALL i have. and i get closer and closer to giving it up forever because it's worthless and will never mean anything to anyone but me. and i enjoy it less and less. i seem to be in an endless rut of nothing looking right and not getting better. and if i can't Art, if i can't create and be at least reasonably happy with it, if i lose that....i might as well be seriously sick and dying because there's nothing inside anymore.

it isn't "just drawing"....it's my soul wrenched out of me through a pen and spilled out on paper for you....

© me