Some of this is gonna make me feel like an art snob
Just call me Snooty McSnobpants
But some days, I need to admit defeat to my inner demons
Just wave the white flag instead of fighting what sometimes seems to be a war of attrition that will damage me more than a victory is worth
But sometimes I do put up a fight
Just to be stubborn
And I find that I respond well to compression and sensory therapy
(strong possibility some of this crap is related to some brand of autism
have been struggling to find professional help)
Self-administered
And that's what we're looking at here
My mental defense of changing my headspace and little out
One of my self-made harnesses
My heavy red panda plush. His name is Captain Xiao and he weighs just over 3 lbs.
A onesie and some thick crinkles
All to give me a sense of security that levels me out long enough to ward off racing thoughts from my stressors
And the nighttime and occasional daytime stress-related inco
Snooty-snob time
This was made of a two-part commission by http://www.furaffinity.net/user/babystar/
I am loving the pose. As much as it looks like utter defeat at first, notice how I'm still on my feet (paws)
Not ready to go down
And a wide-eyed look of 'why~'
Why is this happening? Why do I have to be like this? Why am I broken
It's all there
And even Captain Xiao's blank expression
Even though he's one of my friends, he knows when it's time to be a tool and help me through these times
And I've run out of things to say here