I'm sorry this is your reality right now, Mouse. I wish this wasn't what you are feeling, and I know that no words from an outsider can ease this kind of pain.

It's 2:32 AM where I am right now and this is the most serious night of my life. I'm not in pain, just numb. Life very possibly turned 180 on me today and as a result, major decisions were made tonight. Calmly, rationally, totally realistically.

I hope you fairly swiftly find the love you seek...the love that you have a right to have reciprocated. If not from the source you most want now, then from the source that will prove even better (though you will undoubtedly consider "better" almost impossible to believe at this moment).

You have life ahead of you. Live it to the fullest.

Thank you so much! Your words do mean alot to me. I hope your struggles in your life work out as well!