Very well written.

I think that sexual orientations are are truly determined at birth, or maybe possibly at very early childhood, but I highly believe that its already hardwired into our brain when we are born.

I've thought back at some memories from when I was in grade school and realizing that I as a matter of fact, did show interest in guys and had an attraction towards guys even before I really knew anything about orientation. At that age I didn't know that relationships existed between two guys or two girls so I never really gave it much thought. But I can totally tell now why I did some of the things I did regarding other guys and whatnot >///< Thinking about it I was actually a real bad flirt back in the day without realizing it! hahahah!

But also, I can't help but wonder about these two random crazy incidents that has happened to me. Once in 5th grade and another time during my sophomore year in high school. A point in time where I actually considered a relationship with a female. As far as physical attraction, though, there was nothing there, thats for sure. But personality-wise I almost fell in love with them it would seem. Now in grade school I could feel I could easily pass that off as I was just following cultural standards of being with another female, but when I felt this way again in high school it really did confuse the fuck out of me. By this time I was out to a lot of my close friends but still not openly gay, but clearly had defined myself as being such. To this day I still don't know if could have/would have happened. I just kind of left it alone and we ended up drifting apart after high school.

Come to think of it not sure why I shared that bit. I think I had a point but it got lost somewhere. My bad. But at any rate, I think that orientation is determined at birth, although it does take people different lengths of time and/or experiences to realize. I feel mainly that is because of the way society is today. Afraid to let children know about homosexual relationships because its a bad thing, even though the exposure would be a good thing and help confused youths/teens feel more comfortable of themselves and they might not feel so... alone, odd, and different from everyone else.

OMG I think i just ended talking about three different things, but yeah. This is what happens when my mind starts thinking. XD

Srry, forgot to hit reply! D:

Thank you very much! *u*

Ever since I wrote this, I've thought on the origin of orientation (this could prove a very interesting post alone lol), but I guess it's possible there's no one answer. There's always going to be a barrier between the physical and metaphysical, not just in people's minds but literally a barrier, so even if we find a genetic source for orientation, throw in a theory like reincarnation and watch the fireworks lol. I may write more on that later :)

Growing up I had a similar experience, I think I touched on that a bit in the post if I remember correctly. I grew up in a Christian environment, so there weren't any gay relationships. But as much time as I've spent in self reflection lol, it occurs to me I not only have always been attracted only to guys, but that I had probably even less game than you did lol xD

Those are interesting experiences! I don't tell people this often (so post it on the internet Doon, well done lol) but in grade school I had a girl best friend, and the way things were, we said we were dating. However, there definitely wasn't a sexual attraction for me, it was just her personality I liked. Not to mention the fact that I hadn't truly connected sex and relationships; in short, I had no real concept of what a relationship was, and I enjoyed fantasizing about some of the guys in my class while we were "together" lol. On a side note, have you read about asexuality in any detail? As I understand it, they use the exact same spectrum of orientation as everyone else but each orientation is, of course, a platonic romance, which means they technically have their own orientations altogether. I bring this up because it's hard to know what might have happened from different choices in the past, but the idea that those who simply aren't sexual (or in our case back then, mostly clueless about sex lol), can feel drawn toward specific demographics anyway raises an important point I think.

So glad you said that! Yes, there should be much more exposure to the differing orientations in youth, but at this point, I'd start wishing for a musical unicorn too lol. To be successful, it would require society to reduce emphasis on procreation and to truly consist equally and unbiasedly (inventing words is fun lol) of all orientations. I think we're a long space-time away from ever getting to that utopia.

For the record, I ramble all the time! And over think, so brutal combo there yeah? Totally know what you mean! :3

Thanks for the long response! I really enjoy talking about this sort of thing *D*

I too enjoy talking about this sort of thing as well. Although for some reason I can't recollect all my thoughts and type them out at the moment. Maybe I'll try a little bit later.

I have that problem sometimes too lol, an overly analytical brain is a loud one I think :P